Depressed

What's the point in trying?

I don't know if you like being toyed with..., but If I'm being honest, I really don't! So think about the people you could lose after you say what you're going to say! I wish I didn't know you, because If I didn't, I know I wouldn't be writing this, I'd be happy and with friends! But no you had to fxck that up for me! You fxckd me up so bad to the point I didn't even want to breathe or even walk on earth! You fed me lies, you told me that you loved me when we both knew that sh!t was a lie! You said you missed me, then ghosted me for the next week. Don't say it if you honestly don't mean it! Like your dumb promises, You promis sh!t you can't fulfill. Do you even know the meaning of a promis? Because you sure don't act like you do! You don't know how deep the shit you say is, The deeper you speak, the deeper I cut! I hope you know you made me depressed because of how toxic you are! You knew that I loved you, but you still decided to fxcken leave! When people toy with my emotions...,They're dead to me!... I wish I never told you that I, "loved you to." But the way you said it made me believe it. I hope someone tells you how much you can hurt people when you say this sh!t you do. I cut myself and wanted to end my life becuse of the sh!t you put me through. You sit behind a screen and tell me that I'm not enough, then you tell me you love me, at least have the balls to go up to me If you really wanna talk shit! Honestly. People think they're safe until it's real life. Like..., I want to hug you so badly, but then I want to hurt you even more. You blocked me because you knew I was speaking facts when I said you were all shit! I saved your relationship because I hated seeing you hurt! Then you leave me... You go to her, tell her what she wants to hear, then fight the next minute. You come right back to my Dm's. You say your sorry then you leave me again. Like, just say it, Say you don't like me unless it's 4:00 Am and you're lonely. I don't understand the way you work! You can't just chuck around the words, "I love you and I miss you!" Because that sh!t is fxcked up!

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