Depressed

Relationship

I know the feeling when you try so hard to make things work but things don't always go as planned! People say their relationship is bad but It's not as bad as others! So next time you say your relationship is bad think of others! It goes good at the start and then from there It's down Hill! Like You's meet and date you have a good time for the first 2 months so you are going over to theres and they come to yours until one day they don't reply nor talk to you for months on months but during those months you grabbed blades and cut you fall into deep depression and cried yourself to sleep you hated not being with him/her and you hated not talking to them nor seeing them everyday. Until you felt happy and free and they barely ever crossed your mind so you were finally happy, until He/she messaged you after months and you get happier than ever as you call and talk to them for 1 hour not asking about anything because you were too scared so yous start to call more and then only text. After a while you feel alone because you have no one to tell how you feel about him/her so you bottle up your emotions and he/she again cuts you off and you want to tell him/her: Why did you ghost me?Why didn't you just end it? I cut myself because of you telling me things and promising me things that you will never do because I know what you are like so why Me? Why Do you have to be so fuxked up and then fuxk someone else up! And then you made me depressed! So WHY! I hate you and I hate being alive I hate being alive so much I cut lines everyday because I have a heart and I miss you but you don't know anything! But you really only say, "Love you night," "Please talk to me." They blocked you and moved on but you think about him/her almost everyday till the point you read all the old messages and realize you don't need them because they are toxic, they use you, they aren't worth it and you were blinded by their fake I love yous and I miss yous! So you begin to be happy again and start to be around people you care for hoping one day he/she will come back into your life and give you a big hug and tell you they are sorry but you know they moved on so you try to as well! But nothing works to make them come back so you forget about them and only sometimes wish to see them again and through the time of not talking to them you realize you don't need them and as long as you know your worth you don't need them or any other toxic people in your life!! Because if you feel the need to cut yourself because of them Leave them right now and you will be free and the person you were always meant to be!

Make sure it's 100% Love and 0% fake love!