Depressed

Honestly I don't know

You're going through shit, Just don't make excuses. Just come out to who you are. They don't want you anymore! They say they Love you but they tell your enemy the same thing. You say you hate them but next minute you go look for them. They got you so fucked up. Maybe if you met someone else things would be different right now. They say that they Love but they really cappin so don't trust them no more. They say they never wanna lose you, but they do shit to make you want to lose blood. Though you might want to, please don't go back to them! Your heart might feel empty because you miss them, Just fill it up with people that care and Love for you! Because when you're with them they make you feel like you're worth nothing and you aren't anything. I know it's hard to keep you distance from someone you love but trust me it will help! It might seem like you can't escape but you can because no one has control over you but you, and I hope you know that! Right now you think what you and her/Him have are strong and yous just fight a lot but when your older and you look back you will think your dumb or stupid for not leave that person behind! It was hard to look at my old friend and pretend that I wanted to still be her friend. I wish I opened my eyes and told myself that she/he isn't worth my time. You stay in the friendship because you think it will get better but It really won't! Because you have everything right here, Just open your eyes and get away from that negativity. All the love surrounding you, Why can't you take it? You keep on pushing the people that love you away from you, so you try to be friends with a person they don't even care for. There are so many people that love you but you can't let them love you if you can't even love yourself! Somehow you end up with them again. No matter how hard you try, your friendship won't get better, It will never get easier on you if you don't cut them off. All you need to find is peace inside of you, something or someone that will make you feel good and help love yourself. They keep playing games with you and you can't even see that. Cut them off now or live in a trap forever...You won't be able to breathe clean air if you're around so many toxic people. They pollute you with their Lies. You might think you're too weak and too kind but you're strong and it's ok to be kind. You might not be fine because you're trapped in your mind, so let loose and find someone that you truly care for! It's not safe for you to be in this headspace. They look you in the face and tell you lies, They say they love you even if it's fake. You act like you care because you're so fxckin scared. You're too good for them. They don't fxckin care for you at all! Sometimes the truth hurts more than lies. So why are you looking for someone who doesn't give a fxck about you? For real though... 

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