working for JYP Entertainment never came to your mind as a job you'd ever have in the future but as years passed by in a blink of an eye, feelings get in the way.
how far are you willing to go to avoid a possible scandal & keep the company's reputa...
i walked further & further away from jinyoung. my heart felt heavier & heavier with each step i took.
numbness; was what i felt all around me. what had i done?
JINYOUNG's POV ;
i watched (y/n) as she faded into the hallway. her shoulders rising ever so slightly. i could tell that she was crying while she walked away from me, from our now ended, relationship.
i knew her all too well.
"i can't do this." these words that came out of her mouth shattered my heart into pieces. it kept replaying in my head and i couldn't stop hearing it.
it felt like a sword was being stabbed through my heart.
the sword being her words.
"i thought you'd be willing to do this with me no matter what." i muttered under my breath, my eyes fixed on her walking away.
my vision soon became blurry. tears fell down my cheeks, and soon i was bawling my eyes out. i leaned my back against the wall, and slid down going into a squatting position as my head found the wall, leaning onto it.
i punched the wall, and smacked my head onto it when the members found me screaming "NO!" at the top of my lungs as i continued to shed tears.
the love of my life has just walked away from me.
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"h-hyung..!" yugyeom said, his face stuffed with cake. soon, all six members were by my side, asking me what happened.
"she gave up on us." i said, defeated.
"she.. as in (y/n) she?!" youngjae asked, clearly taken by shock.
"but everything looked so perf-" jackson started before mark hyung stopped him from saying any more. i heard mark mumble something along the lines of, "it'll just hurt him more."
i was in strong denial that whatever happened actually happened.
"d-did that happen?! DID THAT JUST HAPPEN?!" i yelled, banging my head onto the wall with all my might.
i refused to believe it.
no.
no.
no.
"JINYOUNG AH!" jaebeom yelled, stopping me from continuing my deed.
"stop this!" he glared as he grabbed my head, forcefully stopping me from hurting myself even more.
"this is all my fault!" i cried, sinking into jaebeom's arms.
my ears flushed a bright red, as the rest of the members came in for a group hug.
(y/n).. i already miss you and it hasn't even been a day.
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Y/N's POV ; TIME : 4AM, 3 hours after the incident had happened.
i layed on my bed, staring at the ceiling as i talked to min on the phone about what had just happened.
"why did i say that?! i wasn't thinking properly..!" i cried to min on the phone.
i fully regretted what i had done but at the same time, i don't. i knew i needed space and a breather but i walked away from him just like that..! he must be in so much pain.
"(y/n).. people make mistakes." min said. "maybe you thought you loved him when you were just infatuated with him because of the amount of times you see him every day." she explained.
although she could be right, why didn't i feel this way about any of the other members when i see them just as much as i see jinyoung?
"but min.. jinyoung's aura and expression was different when we argued earlier.."
"his eyes screamed pain and hurt and i feel so bad. i must've hurt him so bad!" i yelled, slapping myself in the face as i continued to shed tears.
"what if i go up to him and apologise?! do you think everything will go back to norm-"
"(y/n).. you can't just simply apologise to someone. especially when you've argued with them that bad."
"give it some time okay? focus on yourself, reflect and after giving everything a good thought, decide what you really want for yourself," min advised.
i nodded. min's right. i should reflect and give it some time. but how long can "some time" take? days? weeks? months? what if.. years?!
and what about my job? did any of the staff hear us? if they did, would they fire me?!
"min; where did you all go for the meeting?" i asked.
"we went out of the hotel, why?"
"i was worried about any staff hearing us arguing," i sighed in relief.
at least i'still have this job. i'll have to switch with min when doing the members' make up again. i can't face jinyoung again, let alone TALK to him after what happened today. it'd hurt too much, too much for me to even handle.
how am i gonna act around the members? like i'm totally fine? i can't, i am the worst at hiding my emotions and even if i tried to, they'd see right through me.
"jinyoung, i'm convinced that this break is urgently needed between us. but if we still love each other by the time this break comes to an end is a question we both don't know the answer to."
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((this was such a painful chapter to write. ugh omg i'm so sorry but i hope i got yall in your feels!!))
