𝐁𝐄𝐘𝐎𝐍𝐃 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐑𝐀. | park jinyoung ff

fifteen - process.

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"this is your last day in japan, (y/n)." i said to myself as i looked at my reflection in the mirror. "you've got this."

it had just been a day after jinyoung and i had argued.

a day never felt so long and i never stopped thinking about the incident.

jinyoung was running in my mind the entire night.

my heart felt as heavy as ever, but i had to go to their concert today either way. i have to, it's my job.

it was insane to think that i had made so many memories with jinyoung. all the smiles, laughter, jokes and comfort are all gone now.

come to think if it, if this situation never closes properly, i'll probably never be able to make more of those memories with him. i never thought i'd have a fight with him this bad, let alone get into a relationship with him.

but what's done is done. all i have to do now is learn to deal with it in one way or another.

jinyoung ah, what if i forget about us?

TEXT MESSAGE FROM ; MARK
mark : you okay?

not really. my heart feels almost numb you know? :/

mark : i understand.

don't tell jinyoung about how i feel, okay? i don't wanna communicate with him in any way for now..

mark : of course (y/n), just checking up on you. we're all friends anyway~~!

i kept fighting the urge to ask mark about how jinyoung was and how he was coping. eventually, i was able to resist it. but it took ton of effort.

i'll be doing your make up for the concert tonight, kay?

mark : roger that. (y/n), i hope you know that got5 believes that you and jinyoung will overcome this.

please.. don't bring him up for now :/

mark : my bad TT
mark : anyway, we'll see you later aight? if you feel uncomfortable about seeing jinyoung, approach any one of us. we'll try our best to lighten the mood

ㅇㅋ !!! (slang/short form for "ok!" in korean text)

•••

"just need to do your blush and lips, and we're done!" i smiled softly to mark in the mirror. he nodded, returning the smile.

youngjae, who was sat beside mark looked up at me in concern. i glanced at him and nudged his head lightly, "i'm coping." i mouthed. he chuckled and went back to his phone.

or am i?

"(y/n)? could you get the delivery from the entrance? it's food for us during the breaks," min said. "i'll finish mark's makeup for you." she smiled.

i nodded and gave mark a quick tap on his shoulder. as i headed out in a rush, i accidentally pushed down a stack of chairs in the dressing room.

what's new.

i sighed heavily, and crouched to pick the chairs up. a pair of hands came into my sight. please don't be jinyoung, please don't be jinyoung, please don't be-

it was jinyoung.

we made eye contact for less than a second and immediately both got up, and changed directions. i ran off to the entrance as jinyoung scurried to his seat.

what luck i have today.

i sighed, shaking my head.

•••

these short instances where jinyoung and i would make eye contact happened throughout the concert today and although it made my heart flutter 0.1% of the time, it sometimes made me irritated. irritated that he didn't look at things from my perspective and- no. stop thinking about him.

"(y/n)! stop day dreaming!" jia called out, as i got snapped back to the dressing room. "h-huh what's going-" i asked myself, confused.

mark noticed and said, "the concert's done, you have to remove the makeup..?" he chuckled.

i shot up and instantly got to removing mark's makeup ever so gently. jinyoung? who's he? never heard of him. i scoffed to myself.

it's funny how i tried to act all smug and confident but deep inside, i was so confused on how to move forward.

it was like i was constantly being held back by a rope- it wouldn't let me move forward.

i was only ever jinyoung's makeup artist so this was my first time removing mark's make up and i made sure to be as gentle as i could.

"you've been so dazed today," jackson commented as he stood beside me, watching me remove mark's make up. "bet she's just hungry, as always." bam attempted to make the atmosphere less tense.

"yah bam you're dead-" i glared, holding out a fist but i stopped myself.

"pfft-"

huh?!

i don't know if i was hearing things or not but i swear i heard jinyoung's honey-like chuckle. it sounded all too familar..

i shot my head to turn to jackson.

jackson jumped in his position ever so slightly. "d-did you hear that?" i asked, hurrying him for an answer.

"heard what? jinyoung-ssi's laugh?" jackson questioned. i nodded frantically. so i WASN'T hearing things...! thank god; i thought i was turning insane for a second.

"but that was the softest chuckle ever..!" mark whispered. "how'd you manage to hear it?"
"unless of course.."

"you were paying attention to him..!" mark and jackson whispered in unison.

i flicked both their foreheads, earning an "owwww~" from the both of them as i laughed it off. "nice try idiots."

no. i would no longer pay attention to him, at least not for now.