𝐁𝐄𝐘𝐎𝐍𝐃 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐑𝐀. | park jinyoung ff

eleven - panic attack?

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i turned to look at jinyoung and he was sound asleep.

jinyoung-ssi, i wish it could be so simple to make a decision this big.. but it isn't. whatever happens after we make it public, will affect a bunch of people.

i muttered.

"so you don't love me?" it was as if jinyoung had read my mind.

"yah!" i whispered-yelled. "when did i ever say that?"

"if you love me, you'd trust me when i say we'll do this together.." he pouted yet again, but his eyes still closed.

the sound of sleepy voice right next to my ear made my heart beat so fast.

i reached for his hand and i intertwined my fingers with his. "i love you so much, dumbass. i'm willing to fight for us with you," i pecked him on the forehead.

he smiled softly, holding my hand tighter as he dozed off to sleep once more.

•••

"fired! you're fired! you don't belong here anymore, useless piece of garbage! you always slack off at work and now you want to date an idol? you're an idio-"

pouring, it was 1am in the morning. i shot up from the sheets and i started breathing heavily.

my shoulders were rising up and down rapidly as i tried to catch my breath.

i felt suffocated.

i could feel my heart beating against my chest, it felt as if it was about to come out of my chest. i could hear my heartbeat ringing in my ears and everything was blurry.

that dream...

i hurried out of my room and knocked on the door left of mine.

"p-please.." i begged as i clutched the hem of my pajamas, not being able to breathe properly. i knocked on the door continuously and frantically.

soon, i started to lose balance from the lack of oxygen coming into my body.

i leaned my weight onto the door, continuing to knock as much as i could.

yugyeom finally answered the door and saw the state i was in. "y-yah! (y/n)?!" he asked in shock.

he picked me up and held me in his arms.

JINYOUNG's POV ;

the bright light of the hallway woke me up.

i fluttered my eyes to face the ceiling when i heard yugyeom's voice, "y-yah! (y/n)?"

i jump out of bed and rushed to the door to see (y/n) in yugyeom's arms, panting for dear life.

her forehead had sweat droplets forming on it, her lips were dry as she her chest rose up and down rapidly.

no no no no no no no no. a panic attack, she's having a big panic attack!

yugyeom carefully brought her into my arms as i held her weight on my body, i allowed her to lean on me.

"(y/n), i'm here. please relax," i cried as i brought her into the room and shut the door.

"gyeom, get a paper bag from my luggage. it's on the inner zip, there should be two pairs of sunglasses in there. take those out and give me the bag!" i instructed as i sat on the floor, still taking care of (y/n) in my arms.

"(y/n), you're okay. i've got you, you're safe, you're safe." i repeated.

"j-jinyoung...!!!" she panted. "p-please...! she cried.

yugyeom handed the paper bag to me as i gave it to (y/n). she yanked it from my hand and put it over her mouth, breathing in and out rapidly.

"(y/n), deep breaths. deep breaths." i instructed, as she sank into my arms. i saw tears in her eyes, her face was turning purple.

my heart broke to see her this way. this wasn't new when it came to (y/n), but only a few members have seen her like this. including me.

her eyes were watering and her chest never stopped rising and falling rapidly. she clutched the paper bag in her hands so hard to the point where her knuckles turned white.

my heart was aching.

she really wasn't breathing well.

(y/n), please. you've got this.

"hyung.. should we call the staff?" yugyeom asked concerned. he hadn't experienced this before and i could tell he was scared and flustered.

i shook my head calmly.

(y/n) clutched my shirt as she panted rapidly. "(y/n), i'm here, i'm here." i assured as yugyeom handed her a glass of water.

soon, she had calmed down. her heart beat was still fast, but she was breathing normally again.

yugyeom, (y/n) and i stayed on the floor, sitting there as i held (y/n) tightly in my arms.

she looked up at me and yugyeom and sobbed.

she buried her face in my chest, as i patted her back slowly. "t-that was terrifying.." she muffled against my chest. "i know (y/n).. i know," i said soothingly.

"thank you." she repeated about a hundred times to yugyeom and i.

"do you think you'll be able to sleep on your own?" yugyeom asked, crouching beside (y/n) and i.

(y/n) frantically shook her head. "i can't handle being alone, in a different country.." she explained, still clutching onto the hem of my shirt.

"(y/n), i've got you." i said as i helped her up and walked her to her room.

"jinyoung..!" she whispered. "don't leave me.." as she pulled me in for an embrace. "i'm not, i'm staying here with you. yugyeom's sleeping alone tonight." i chuckled.

"take care (y/n), see you tomorrow!" yugyeom smiled.

"night nyoung, night (y/n)." yugyeom said before closing (y/n)'s room door quietly.

it must have been about going public to the fans or maybe about losing her job in the company.

i know (y/n). she never gets homesick.

"will they accept me for you?"