working for JYP Entertainment never came to your mind as a job you'd ever have in the future but as years passed by in a blink of an eye, feelings get in the way.
how far are you willing to go to avoid a possible scandal & keep the company's reputa...
i stayed over at jinyoung's place for the past week because i was too lazy to go all the way back to my apartment and to the company.
i woke up early to make a good breakfast for jinyoung and i because he would be tired today; it was their first day going on their world tour.
as i was flipping some pancakes, i felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist. he rested his head on the crook of my neck.
i looked over to him and saw that he had literally just gotten up; his hair was a mess, his eyes squinting from the sunlight, and his voice dry and soft.
"morning.." he muttered, as he closed his eyes on the crook of my neck.
"yah, you're so heavy. get off of me i'm cooking!" i whined, shaking him off of me.
"(y/n), just let me hug you like this..." he mumbled, hugging me tightly. i couldn't help but give in, especially when he looked like this :
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*sigh* what am i gonna do with you.. i sighed as i patted his head.
"(y/n) ah..."
"do you love me?"
my eyes widened as my actions came to an abrupt stop. what does he mean "do i love him" ?! i had fallen for this dumbo since the first day he walked through those doors and spoke even one word to me..!
"w-what do you mea-"
"i feel like i'm overwhelming you because we've gone public and the fans know about us," he muttered, still nuzzled into the crook of my neck.
i turned the stove off and faced him.
"nyoung, you'll forever be the love of my life," i pecked his forehead as his eyes instantly lit up.
"you're such a kid sometimes you know," i scoffed.
he simply ignored that comment.
all he did was hold me in his arms, as we both inhaled the amazing aroma of cooked pancakes.
•••
JINYOUNG's POV : we had to be at the company by 11:30AM so that we'd be in the car on time and it was already 10:45AM.
(y/n) still wasn't ready.
suddenly, i heard a loud "THUMP" coming from the bathroom.
my heart started to beat extremely fast, so fast to the point where i could hear it ringing beside my ears.
"yah (y/n)?!" i yelled, as i rushed into the bathroom.
i couldn't believe my eyes.
she was lying on the bathroom floor, out of breath. her eyes weren't even strong enough to fully open.
i went down on both my knees to reach her level, "y-yah! what happened? is this another panic attack?!" i cried, picking her off of the floor and onto my lap.
she was panting really fast.
"m-my head.. i bumped it on the sh-shower wall.." she started, as she clenched onto my shirt, her knuckles turning a bright white.
"then i-i think i passed out for a minute, and i couldn't brea-" before she could finish, i set her down onto the couch, and grabbed a paper bag.
"(y/n), calm down. i'm here.. breathe into this bag," i picked her up again. at this point she was on my lap, sitting bridal style, as i held her head and lower back.
tears were forming in her eyes yet again.
my heart ached yet again.
i picked up my phone, and rushed to call the staff. i informed them that (y/n) was having a bad panic attack right now. i asked them to take our luggages and a few to pick us up at my place.
•••
as soon as the staff got to my place, i picked (y/n) up bridal style as she continued to breathe into the bag for her life.
this was her first panic attack in 2 years; almost 3. what triggered it all of a sudden?
i hurriedly got into the back of the car.
"yah hyung..!" bam shrieked as he saw the condition (y/n) was in. all 6 pairs of eyes were fixed on me & (y/n).
i held her body, fully supporting her weight at this point. her condition wasn't improving much at all. suddenly, i remembered that she had picked out an inhaler for herself a few months back.
i searched around for it in her bag, and fortunately; i found it.
"(y/n), the inhaler." i instructed as i handed her the inhaler, and took the bag away from her face.
she was sweating, crying and panting.
"i cant... BREATHE!" she yelled as she started to kick her legs and grip my shirt even tighter.
the members did their best to calm (y/n) down.
i made sure to turn the aircon in the car to the coldest temperature in order to get her to calm down a little more.
"(y/n), listen to my words. I'M ALWAYS RIGHT HERE BY YOUR SIDE NO MATTER WHAT. TAKE A DEEP BREATH; AND USE YOUR INHALER LOVE,"
she gulped as she tried to calm herself down.
•••
in a matter of seconds after she had calmed down, she fell into a deep slumber in my arms. i gently set her down beside me, and leaned her head against my shoulder.
"why did that attack seem so much more intense than the one's she's had in the past?" jackson asked, concerned.
i nodded. "that's the question i've been asking myself too.. could it be the tour?"
mark and youngjae nodded in unison. "possibly."
(y/n) wrapped her left arm around my right arm. i made sure to assure her that she's safe, and we're all here.
••• Y/N's POV ; we got to our first destination, denmark.
it was beautiful here. in fact, it was prettier here now that i was with got6 and jinyoung.
"what do you think triggered a panic attack so sudden?" jinyoung asked, holding my hand in his as we strolled along the streets of denmark.
"the tour." i admitted.
"why? what are you so nervous about?"
"i always get nervous whenever you guys go on tour. this is only my second time going on tour with you as your girlfriend,"i scratched my head.
"i don't know why it was so much worse today though," i chuckled.
"i'm.. i'm glad that you're here to put up with my random panic attacks," i mumbled.
"i'm here, and i'm staying by your side. no matter how many attacks you experience; i'll make sure you never experience it alone anymore," he assured me, dead seriousness in his eyes.
i was so lucky to have him. i was so lucky that he didn't mind that i experience panic attacks.
i was lucky that he truly loved me for... me.
((this was just an extra chapter that i wanted to put in here. i dont know.. i feel like i didn't put enough depth into the story, so i decided to write one featuring (y/n)'s panic attack. in NO WAY SHAPE OR FORM AM I TRYING TO MOCK, LOOK DOWN ON OR MAKE FUN OF ANYONE WHO GOES THROUGH THIS ON A DAILY BASIS. THIS IS FOR STORY PURPOSES ONLY.))
