Forever & Always

Chapter 5

"We should go" I mumbled to Hayes as we stood up and began the walk back to the venue. As we entered the door to the venue I noticed Shawn was nervous, he was sitting off to the side of the stage moving his leg up and down trying to control his nerves. "Shawn?" I ask slowly walking over to see if my brother was ok. "SARAH! Where the hell have you been!? I've been worried sick!" I could tell shawn was angry. But even behind that he was really upset with me. I knew he knew I was ok because I was with Hayes but he was yelling at me. All of this yelling brought me back to feeling that I was with dad again. "S-Shawn I'm so so sorry... I should have called or te-" Shawn cut me off my yelling at me again. "That's enough! The last thing I want is for you to get hurt. Let's go" Shawn said as he grabbed my wrist and dragged me off to the room...

I was Now bawling. Shawn just kept on yelling at me! I couldn't talk without him cutting me off and telling me to listen. After about 15 minutes of feeling like I was back at home I finally broke... I couldn't take it anymore. "Stop! Dad please stop!" I yelled back at Shawn. Shawn stopped in his place, silence finally set itself in. I ran to the bathroom and locked the door. Hayes, Nash, Matt, and Aaron came bursting into the room... "Shawn I think you should get out." I heard Nash talking to Shawn trying to keep him calm but nothing was working... The guys eventually had to take Shawn out if the room leaving me locked in the bathroom and Hayes worried sick. "Sarah please open the door.." Hayes stood there begging me to open up. I wouldn't respond. Shawn was yelling like dad, I couldn't process it. I was just crying for what felt like hours... I couldn't believe what Shawn said. All I remember was falling asleep in the bathroom and not coming out.

When I woke up I was a wreck. My eyes were a wreck and I looked like a ghost...

once i had stumbled to my feet, and composed myself, i walked out of the washroom. when i walked out, i was greeted by Hayes, his face was stained in tears. I walked slowly over to im, only to have him slowly wake up.

"oh my god... Sarah" Hayes said as he stumbled awake and wrapped his arms around my small torso. i wrapped my arms around his chest, and just broke down. i was crying, sobbing almost. "im so so sorry..." was all i managed to choke out before i fealt my body being lifted by hays and carried to the room across the hallway.

wen we entered the room, i burried my face into Hayes, while i mumbled an "i really don't want to be here" to him. but of course, he didnt listen. what did i expect?

i was placed in someones lap, i could immediately tell it was shawns. i fealt few warm tears fall onto my shoulder as i began to fall asleep wil shawn...