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CHAPTER TWELVE can't love you.
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TUESDAY 26TH, 23:40
(m/n) threw himself onto his bed, burying his head in his pillow. he yelled into it, his heart beating uncontrollably as his cheeks were a permanent shade of red.
after yelling his heart out, (m/n) rolled over onto his back, hugging the pillow that he yelled into. his cheeks burned and his stomach was filled with butterflies as he thought about johnny. however, he was reminded about something.
"i'm not supposed to like him," (m/n) whispered. "why do i like him? he smokes. i hate smokers." he sat up, running a hand through his hair, the pillow still hugged close to his chest.
he stared out the window, which had the perfect view of where he and johnny stood earlier. just thinking about it made (m/n)'s usually (s/c) cheeks redden even more. he sighed. "but i really like him," the (h/c) haired male pouted, playing with the edges of his pillow. "what should i do?"
(m/n)'s train of thoughts was cut off when his phone suddenly buzzed from his bag. he scrambled off the bed to retrieve it from the floor, and when he turned it on, his heart fluttered at the notification.
johnny added you on kakaotalk!
(m/n) sat back down on his bed, clutching his pillow once again as he stared at his phone. he contemplated on sending him a text, thinking about what he would say if he did. in the end, he decided with something simple.
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23:34 johnny
(m/n) hi ^^ •
johnny • hey • why aren't you asleep yet?
(m/n) eeehh • i'm about to •
johnny • go to sleep, bub • i'll go now, k? • gn
(m/n) 0.0 • goodnight!! •
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(m/n) bit into his pillow, throwing his phone somewhere onto his bed as he tried to conceal his squeals. the butterflies in his stomach were getting out of control and his heart fluttered, his cheeks definitely resemble tomatoes now.
"why do i like him so much?" he asked himself, shaking his head. "i'm supposed to hate him."
(m/n) sighed, his heartbeat calming down and his cheeks were returning back to their original color. his eyes brimmed with tears as he thought about it longer.
"you're not supposed to like anyone who smokes anymore, (m/n)..." the (h/c) haired male mumbled under his breath, his eyebrows furrowed as he stared at his bedsheets. "not after what happened."
(m/n) bit his inner cheek, turning his head towards his window once again, only this time he stared up at the sky. he let out a shaky breath, running a hand through his hair as tears collected in his eyes when he reminded himself of what happened. "what are you crying for?" he mocked himself.
the (h/c) haired male leaned his head against the window. "you're not supposed to miss him." he whispered.
(m/n) stared at the stars in silence. his tears cascading down his cheeks.
"what am i supposed to do?" he whimpered. "i'm in love with johnny," he closed his eyes.
"but i don't want to be."
__________ HI BERRIES SLSKJDHD
sorry if there are any typos :")
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