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CHAPTER FOUR hate.
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TUESDAY 26TH, 00:47
(m/n) laid in bed, eyes staring into the ceiling above him. the moon outside his window lit up his room just enough for him to be able to distinguish different items that were scattered around. it was clear that he wasn't going to fall asleep any time soon.
his mind kept coming back to what happened around a week ago, when he was saved by two guys. he remembered everything as clear as day because 1., he almost lost his virginity to a stranger (and without his consent) for fucks sake, and 2., one of the guys was really attractive to him.
johnny seo, huh?
oh, how (m/n) wanted to meet him again; pull him down to his height and kiss him, cuddle him, hold him close and make him his.
the last thought made (m/n)'s cheeks burn. he pulled the blanket over his nose, sighing at the comfortable feeling. however, he still doesn't feel tired, and his thoughts were still running around; mostly revolving around johnny.
he sighed sadly, remembering that he didn't ask the two for their numbers. johnny's stare was so sharp and intense, it made (m/n) too nervous to even speak to him. not to mention the fact that his expression was intimidating on it's own.
(m/n) didn't even introduce himself to the taller - mark did. he told johnny about (m/n)'s name when he was still frozen in place, too flustered because of how attractive johnny was. though, he remembered that johnny only responded with something that sounded like a grunt.
even with such a simple action, johnny managed to send shivers down (m/n)'s spine. the (h/c) haired male still feels the shocks go through his body every time he imagines it, all because of a simple sound johnny made with his deep (oh fuck, deeper than (m/n) could handle) voice.
groaning, (m/n) rolled over to his side, curling in on himself. his cheeks still felt hot after he thought about johnny's voice and imagined how good it would sound if he said an actual sentence.
his heart hurt. he knew he wouldn't be able to meet johnny again, as he seemed like the type of person who stays in the bad side of town. (m/n) faintly remembers the smell of nicotine on johnny and he hates it. he despises cigarettes and people who smoke with a passion. he should hate johnny becaue of that, but he couldn't.
(m/n) growled under his breath, squeezing his eyes shut and attempting to sleep once again. there was only one thought in his mind;
what's so special about johnny? why can't i hate him?
__________ uhhh yeah
there's this chap ig jdfalkjfka
the drafts are now up to chapter 23! and let me tell you, i'm proud of chapters 21-23 hehe. i like the way they ended up
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oh and don't forget to stream punch and baekhyun's comeback is tmrw (where i live) and moonbyul's releasing a repackage album-
why are all my favs coming back at the same time istg
