THE LOOP (Double Lines)

CHAPTER THREE

Its been almost a week since Miss Mary and I had that incident , yet I see her blurred image when I look at the white wall or the standing mirror in my room . I confessed to the priest yesterday after the service . I thought confession helped to take away our sins but I could still see mine , I could still feel her hands and hear those sounds she made . I cried once painfully because the guilt had over clouded me . Today was the beginning of the new school week . I prayed that God would see me through as I touched my long afro braids . I walked to the car and I wished last week never happened.

LEKKI BRITISH HIGH SCHOOL

As I walked in to school , I felt different, I didn't want to see Miss Maryann by any chance , I spent the last week hiding away from her even when she sent the art girls to my class , I never went to see her . I missed her though , her small laughs , her grey eyes , her olive skin. I missed the view from her glass window but I still loved my self more and I felt she had did respected me in some sort of way . I couldn't say she raped me because she didn't touch my body but she made me touch hers . I felt disgusted when I saw lovers kiss , it often reminded me of that day in miss Mary's office .
As usual I looked at the standing mirror . I balanced my white shirt over my red skirt . My skirt was a bit above knee length but no one complained about it . I walked Val to her class before leaving for mine .
Today was the day we would be meet the new students joining us . The bell for the general assembly has rung and we needed to settle in the hall before the principal would arrive . I walked a little faster , I didn't need anyone rubbing their bodies with mine , I remember once someone rubbed her body on me in the assembly hall , I couldn't wait to get home that day because I smelt of sweat and fish . I settled down before Adelaide my best friend in the whole wide world arrived. She hadn't been in school because she followed her mother to Europe for a seminar . She hugged me so tightly, I couldn't wait for us to get out of the hall, her glow and excitement told me I has a lot of information to swallow . She got best friends bracelet and she didn't waste anytime slipping it on my wrists.
" I missed you " she kept repeating those words .
The principal came in a few minutes , the new students marched behind her . She introduced the students and had them do a very formal introduction by themselves, (I remembered the day I did that , I almost melted on the microphone while introducing myself) . I looked at the twin boys , they looked so handsome even their voices melted my heart . I had seen their pictures but they looked better in person . I saw those two girls , they really looked like dad , I knew Valerie saw their resemblance , when she turned to look at me from the other side of the hall . We
even shared the same surname.
" Isn't it weird that those girls have calendar names . June and July ? " Adelaide said as we left the assembly hall
"Yea it is weird" I replied so slowly and confused.
Adelaide talked about going to see Miss Maryann because she missed her but I didn't want to go into her office . I made excuses like I needed to use the bathroom but Adelaide didn't want to hear any thing else . She opened Miss Mary's office door without even knocking . I feared that she might be undressed but she wasn't . She was actually typing a mail.
As soon as the door closed making that clicking sound that it always does she looked up at us and said
" Hey guys "
" Good morning ma" we both chorused
"Hey Addy , you're back , nice to see you again" she said .
"I missed you a lot , I'm happy to be back to school , but you have to excuse me . I have to use the convenience right away" Adelaide said and quickly turned to the door . I followed her immediately but Miss Mary was quick to call my name and ask me to stay back . I froze as Adelaide left the door .
"You have been avoiding me "She said .
"I have been having classes and assignments to keep me occupied " I said
"I have missed you and I want you to touch me again" She said
I'm late for English class ma , I will see you later. "I said standing up to move to the door
"Your English teacher isn't in school at this present moment .She's visiting her mum at the hospital " She said she stood up and headed for the door . She locked the door and pulled down the curtains as usual.
I could see my heart break into two , I feel my inner myself sink . It was sin I knew but didn't know why she didn't see it . I didn't want to have to confess all this sins. It was dirty as hell . I was sure that the priest wouldn't mind walking away from another confession session . As usual she raised her skirt up but we still did what we did the last time before I stood up to leave .She said "You might be unstable about this right now but as we progress you would get used to it and eventually you will love it. "
I walked away feeling blank . I don't want this kind of teacher and student relationship but I couldn't report her . It was so painful . She was my refuge and comfort but now she's my source of pain and emotional torture .
Adelaide didn't waste time getting to talk to the twin boys from USA, Jeremy and William . She even invited them over to her place after school . I was more concerned about the girls with the calendar names . They looked much more like dad . The chocolate skin was obvious ,the oval shaped eyes even their smiles . I hoped I would get to talk with them someday maybe it would answer my questions . Biology was the first lesson for the day but when miss Olivia came in , she had no lesson notes but she was with one of the girls that looked like dad.
"Hello class" she said
"Good morning Miss Olivia " the class rep answered for the whole class
"This is June Maxwell Martins ."
On hearing her name I froze , that name belonged to my dad . Although we didn't add Maxwell when we filled our school forms and we basically looked like our mum , I was so sure they were linked to dad in a way.