I'll Always Find You

heartbreak.

hey stinkies😳 so unfortunately i heard what happened with benji and jeyjey. ive been planning every aspect in this book since i first began writing it so i am going to finish it. this will be the last and final chapter and then the book will be complete. i hope you enjoy.~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Jorge's POV
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Benji is gone. He's been gone since Thursday. God I can't believe he didn't tell me sooner. I've got to get out here. Leave this place, but I can't just leave Benji here. He's lifeless but that doesn't mean I should leave the love of my life. I can't believe that after everything, after the fighting and the ignoring, that I got to have such a short amount of good time with him.

We've known eachother for years, and now every memory he had with me is just gone. Dust. What if he experienced something and I never knew it? Now I never will.

I don't want anyone else, I don't ever want to leave this room. I'll lay in bed and never leave. If I lay in this bed, maybe I can recreate what it felt like to hold him and to be held by him.

I wish we would've spent more time together. I should've never ignored him. This is all my fault. I don't deserve anyone else. I don't deserve to be here, receiving care.

I heard a knocking, it was a nurse. "Jorge, you need to get up amd get something to eat. It's been two days, if you don't come out soon we will have to admit you to the psychiatric unit." I didn't move, only moved my eyes to look at her. She didn't look happy when she said all of that. She did one od those fake, awkward smiles. She was just peering in the door with her hand wrapped around the door.

She closed it and I guess she waited outside because by the time I got dressed and walked out the door, she was standing next to the door. She gave me a small smile and walked down the hall with me. Everyone in the lounge looked up at me when I walked in. Waffles for breakfast. I grabbed a plate and sat down while pretending everything was okay.

I didn't talk to anybody, then I walked back to my room. What else was I supposed to do? There was a special showing of Kung Fu Panda that night, so I watched it all and stayed in my room and cried. Benji would've laughed at every single joke because he's so cheesy. I ordered food to my room, grilled cheese.

~Two Weeks Later~

I couldn't bring myself to do anything. I just wanted to lay here. I think I was starting to either hallucinate or have extremely vivid dreams because Benji was here lastnight. We watched Kung Fu Panda lastnight and he laughed at the cheesy jokes and clumsy falls. It was like it was real.

I haven't eaten in a little less than a week. Maybe that's what caused the hallucinations. Tonight I just laid in bed. I closed my eyes and thought about Benji. That's when my chest started hurting. It started stinging and it felt like someone was stabbing me.

I started crying, remembering that if Benji really were here he would tell me what it what just because he's smart like that. Then another pain. God it hurt so bad. I wish Benji were here to hold me. Then another sharp pain. God I miss Benji so much, why does this hurt so much? Jesus Christ. Is my heart going to explode? Then another pain. Then I guess I passed out.

As I was going in and out of consciousness, I heard loud beeping and tons of people around me talking and being frantic and dropping things. It was like a lucid dream or something. Then I hear an extended beep, and everything turns black.

Third Person POV
~Jorge Garay died on September 14th, at 5:03pm. He died of a broken heart.

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HEY GUYSSSSS I hope you enjoyed. I have a feeling ever since the situation happened that people are gonna be a lot happier with the ending, but when I started writing it I had the intentions of making everyone hate me because of it. Sorry I haven't updated in a while, I've been travelling, going to college, dropping out, and I just recently got out of the hospital, so. I hope you guys enjoyed. Thanks so much for the reads and support on this book! Bye!