Loving Secrets: An Ashton Irwin Fanfiction

Chapter 6

*The next morning*

I open my eyes to see that Ash has already gotten out of bed. I lay there for a while, thinking about everything that happened last night. It felt like ages ago.

While mapping out the night I suddenly remember Luke. Shit! I throw the covers off my body and jolt out of the bedroom after throwing on a pair of sweatpants I found on the floor. I stand at the top of the stairs, ready to run down and tell the other guys, but hear them talking in hushed tones.

"Where is he?" one of the boys asks, I think Calum.

"I don't know. I heard a slam last night but I didn't think anything of it. I thought maybe you and Dani were still awake." Michael says.

"No, buy 2 am we were both asleep." Ashton answers. I cringe a bit. That was a lie, he just didn't know it. I want to tell the boys that Luke ran out. That he left. But I couldn't without Ashton wondering why I was talking to him last night.

"Well we have to go find him." Calum states, as if it were obvious.

"No, it's fine. He's a big boy he'll come home." Ash says as he looks up at me at the top of the stairs with a saddened look in his eyes. Why is he looking at me like that? Oh god. He knows something.

"Ashton are you kidding me!? We can't just leave h-"

"Yes we can. I'm sure he's fine. If he's smart he'll come home soon." Ashton says, ending the conversation. He then looks back at me and starts walking up the stairs. If Luke was smart then none of this would've happened. "Morning babe." Ash says, giving me a half smile.

I have to say it. I have to tell him. "Ashton, I know where-"

"I know." He says walking past me and into the bedroom. Great. I follow him.

"You heard us?" I ask him, unsure what he was thinking at the moment.

"I heard you get out of bed. And then I heard mumbling coming from his room. And the door slam. And then..." He stops. Did he hear me saying that I love him?

"Did you hear what we were saying?" I ask. I hope to god he didn't.

"Does it matter what you were saying?" he says upset. Shit.

"Yes, it does."

"Why? Why were you even talking to him. Why would you sneak out of bed to go talk to that guy?"

"'That guy', is your best friend. And I had to clear things up with him."

"Sure." He says, not believing me. "Why would he leave the house after you guys just 'cleared things up'?"

"What are you saying!?" I shout. Does he seriously think I'd betray him like that?

"I'm saying that if I was guilty I'd leave the damn house too!"

"What!" He thinks I fucking slept with Luke?! It's been like 2 days since I even had sex for the first time. Does he think so lowly of me? That I'd just jump to the next guy I see?! "No! Did you not hear me last night? When I came in."

"I did. I heard you." Ok, good. "You were saying those things to be reassuring!" Sweet fucking jesus.

"No I meant them!"

"Why would anybody say those fucking words to me and mean them?!" Oh no. "No one ever means those words to me!" Tears threaten to fall down his face as he rushes out the door.

"Fuck!" I mumble under my breath. "Ashton, wait!" I yell and follow him outside. Normally it would be bright outside but the clouds are covering the sky. How cheery. I grab his arm, causing him to turn around.