I fell in love with a fuck boy

Prologue

"Gago. Vicky, anong nangyari sayo!"

Sobrang basag ko na at di ko na maintindihan ang sinasabi ng tatlong babaeng nasa harapan ko. Pero sure ako na si Mika yung sumisigaw at sobrang worried sa ichura ko. I couldn't think straight anymore. I was able to finish all the alchohol that I bought kanina. Kahit mag-isa lang ako! Lumalakas talaga alcohol tolerance ng tao kapag broken. Mas lumalakas pa pag niloko ka. 

"We have to call her mom, Mika."

"Wag. Magagalit si Tita pag nalaman niya to. Just grab some wash cloth and mainit na tubig. Ihahalf bath ko siya. Irish, tulungan mkong magbuhat dito kay Vicky." Binuhat naman nila ako pero nahihirapan ng kunti cause I'm little taller than Mika and Irish.

Nung malagay na nila ako sa kama. Nawalan na ako ng malay sa sobrang kalasingan.

"Travis, how could you do this to me?!" Iyak ako ng iyak ng maabutan ko siyang may hinahalikang babae sa condo niya. She looks familiar and I guess she knew me too. She's so casual when she learned that I saw them making out. Parang walang pakialam na yung lalakeng hinahalikan niya ay girlfriend ng babaeng nasa may pintuan, galit at shock na nakatingin sakanilang dalawa.

Umalis na yung babae ng magwala ako at sinundan naman ni Travis kaso di na niya naabutan. He glared at me while walking papunta sa living room.

"How dare you cheat on me?!" I said when I followed him to his living room. Wala lang siyang pakialam sakin. He started looking for movies to watch on netflix. Ang kapal ng mukha?

Lumapit ako at kinuha ang atensyon niya dahil sinampal ko ang braso niya. He looked at me with no emotions. I asked him again and again but still didn't answer. I loved him with all my heart in every way possible. And this is what I get in return?

Hindi niya ako sinasagot at bigla nalang hinawakan ang dalawa kong kamay na kanina pa sinasampal ang braso to catch his attention and answer my fucking question.

"You're boring. A virgin cannot please what I've been tasting for years."

Sinabi niya yun ng walang pakialam kung anong magiging apekto ng mga binitawang salita saakin. I was left dumbfounded by the way he looked at me in the eye and said those words. I..I can't believe this. Am I dreaming??

Ang sakit sakit pala kapag nakukuha mo yung sagot sa mga tanong mo, lalo na kung bakit ka niya niloko. Those words, that eyes.. the way he looked at me, the way he held my arms was.. nothing. I didn't even feel that he was apologizing or still cared about me. He just.. walked away leaving me.

I heared he took his keys and left me in his condo. Like I wasn't even there. No explanations. No.. sorry? Like he really meant what he did so he can actually feel the hurt?

After realizing every piece of crap he gave me this very moment, I fell on my knees and cried. Sunod sunod yung iyak ko. Nababasa na yung shirt ko and I don't even have a hanky to wipe my tears away. Ang sakit sakit.

I almost still stayed there for 30 minutes, until I stood up. Nagbabakasakaling bumalik siya but I received a text.

From: Travis <3

Please go home and locked the door. I don't want to see you anymore when I come back at my condo. Please. Thanks

I locked my phone when I read his last message. Kung kanina sakit ang nararamdaman ko, ngayon naman ay galit. How could I even let him treat me this way?

I stood up and started walking around his condo. When I open the door to his room, I saw our picture in his side table. It was our first ever picture. I grabbed it and threw it. I was feeling so angry that I wanted to smash every stuff here in his condo.

But I couldn't. He's surely an asshole for letting me feel this way. Cheating on me and not even care that I saw it first hand. Not even apologizing for what he did and gave the coldest and meanest answer to my question ever. But I couldn't trash his condo. I wish I could, but I can't. I still love him.

When I open the door to step out of his condo, I decide to glance once more. I guess this is the end of our relationship. A relationship that I was so scared to be in to begin with. I trusted and loved him and this is what happened, a tragedy.

Dumiretso ako kagad sa isang convenience store at bumili ng madaming alak at umuwi sa condo ko.

Inom ako ng inom hanggang sa mag pass out nalang ako. I don't really care how will this turn out tomorrow pero sa ngayon gusto ko lang makalimot.