I fell in love with a fuck boy

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Everyone was quiet. Letting Tita Niña to talk for the girl. "Mika will be taking up mass communications at De Lasalle." She smiled at my mom. My mom smiled back, she already expected that kanina kaya she wasn't even shock when Tita Niña was the one who answered for Mika.

I on the other hand didn't had a chance to comment about it. After that conversation with my mom kanina sa breakfast. I, too expected that one coming. I calmly took my phone and scrolled ny social media account. I posted a story kasi on IG kanina kaya tiningnan ko kung sino yung mga nagview.

"Oh wow, that's nice, Mika. Good for you. And good luck by the way." My mom chuckled and Tita Niña, too. Mika on the other hand was just smiling.

She glanced at me first before talking. "I was hoping nga Tita that we girls can go to the same school. Not sure, if that'll happen." She smiled and then drank her water.

"Well, yun din ang gusto ni Irish, Mika. But I believe iba-iba ang gusto nilang course. And you can't find it in just one university here in Manila. It'll just be complicated enough." Sabi naman ni Tita Grace. "Like Irish here, she wants to pursue Psychology. I mean it's somewhat unimaginable for me because it's a tough choice but that's what she wants and I accepted it." she explained. Sila sila muna magusap. Ako naman nakikinig lang while browsing sa facebook with my phone.

"We just want the best for her. Pero we had a deal na we get to choose the school for her. We both agreed with Ateneo." Tito Nick said pag dugtong sa sabi naman ng asawa niya.

Well, in that case. Wala na tayong magagawa. Sila nag decide para kay Irish eh.

Tiningnan ko naman si Irish and parang nagmamakaawa ang saying sorry softly. Still had to follow her parent's order. Ganon talaga pag mayaman pamilya. Nako

"Jacque's taking up accountancy at diliman since Jerry and I both graduated there. So happy that she's following our footsteps. One day she'll be taking over our firm." She chuckled. "And then baka maging CPA lawyer na din." High hopes for Jacque. The pressure is uncontrollably high. But I guess, she can do it. I mean, if that's what she wants.

But I'm still disappointed kasi nalaman ko pa kila Tito and Tita. I mean, patapos palang ang high school wala na kagad silang pakialam sa friendship namin? Kaya pala sobrang awkward nila kapag paulit ulit akong nagbibiro na we will stay in one university. May mga ibang plans na pala sila. Still, I shrugged it off. Remembering what my mom said.

Pero nasasad pa din ako. I was stressed in pursuing to finish my clearance faster and took my grades agad agad to see how it went para naman if ever we go to the same university, lahat ng requirements ma meet. Yun pala, iba iba talaga.

I'm not sure how far our schools will be apart but I bet it'll be really far. I was thinking about how we will be able to hang out after school? Baka naman naisip nila yun?

Still being curious and disappointed syempre wala akong sinabi sa mga sinabi ng parents nila. Hindi naman ako ganon ka badass na magtatalk back nalang or makikipag away sa harap ng mga magulang namin. My mom also reassured me and smiled at me.

We really had to have a talk bago man lang kami maghiwahiwalay ng school.

"How about you, Vicky? San ka papasok? Or what's the course that you're taking? Mika haven't said anything since nagdadalawang isip ka pa daw." Pagtanong naman sakin ni Tita Niña

Natigilan naman ako, I was asking the same question over and over again. Merong answer pero hindi final. I'm still confused. Lalo na ngayon na alam ko na kung saan silang school magaaral. It's like, mapapalayo kami and all plus it's a new environment! Di ko ata kayang magisa.

"I still don't know, Tita eh. I have all the month pa naman siguro to finally decide what to take." I answered coldly. Ano nga ba ang gusto ko?

"Well, take all the time you want to decide. It's best to be sure for your future para di palipat lipat ng course or school diba?" She joked.

"Opo. Hehe"

And then our food came and we all just started eating. May mga small talk sila pero ako di nagsasalita. I kept thinking kung ano ba talaga.

I'm not mad sakanila since yung gusto naman nila ang importante. And I was really expecting about it since last night and kaninang umaga. Of course I won't be forcing that to do what I want I'm not someone to tell them what to do with their lives. And if they are happy about that decision, who am I to complain?

After eating, dumiretso ako sa banyo.

I know na susundan ako ng tatlo pero dirediretso lang ako sa cubicle. After doing my business pagkalabas ko, nakita ko na sila.

Nagpuppy eyes and saying sorry.

"I'm not mad." I said.

"Really? Why the long face, tho?" Tanong naman ni Mika.

"Buti pa kasi kayo may adulting decisions ng nalampasan. Eh ako?"

It was really hard to feel left out. Parang sila handang handa na sa future tapos ako stock in the past, not knowing how to move forward.

"Oh common, Vicky. I know you'll do good" Pag assure naman sakin ni Irish tapos lumalapit na for a small hug tapos sumunod na din yung dalawa.

"We know you'll do." They all whispered while hugging me. Pagkatapos namin, we went back to our table and nagbayad na ng bill sila mommy. She's still checking if my small smile is okay. I assured her naman by giving her a wink. I know she's worried about me.

I felt okay with the hug they gave me sa banyo. They really trust me. So, I should trust myself too. Hindi dapat ako pabagal bagal. Well, we all have our time to be successful. But, I'll choose my path and be good at it. Kulang nalang yung program na itatake ko. Pero meron naman na akong naiisip. I'll search at home more about it para naman talagang 100% akong sigurado sa desisyon ko.

I know, I'll be good at it if ever I accepted my faith and what I believe I'll be better.

I really hope, I do.

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