My Feelings Are Confusing

I can't go back to the beach

"Rose, Winter I can't get him you five will have to." I turned my chair around to face the window because i didn't' want them to see my crying.

" Why can't you go. Don't you want him back" Chris asked and i heard a smack. I am guessing that Winter hit his head.

" I do want him back don't you see the way i look and the way i have been acting for the past two months. I can't go to the beach he wants to meet up because that beach is where he killed my parents and where he killed my best friend in front of my eyes. I watch all three of them dying and i couldn't do anything to help them. I promised myself that i won't' go back there and that's why when Blaze and i went on a date Rose told him not that beach." 

"I am sorry i didn't know." 

"I know but you are right we all will go together.See you tomorrow."

 They walked out and i walked to my bedroom and took a shower and fell asleep. Around 1 we were heading to the beach and i could see Ace on the beach."Blaze get in the front seat i am gonna grab him and then you are gonna drive until we get to my house. I got out of the car and i ran to Ace. When i go there he was past out. I picked him up and ran to the car. I am sorry" I said to him. I got into the car and put him on my lap and when we got home i ran him to the pack doctor. They took him away and five hours later everyone was with me when the doctor came in.

" Boss he has broken ribs, his wrist and he has scars and cuts everywhere and ummm he was raped."

I couldn't hold it in anymore i started crying. I ran to my office and once again i broke everything and i punched holes in the hall and i flipped my desk over which i don't ever do but i couldn't save him. I started yelling.

"THIS IS ALL MY FAULT IF I DIDN'T BRING HIM INTO MY LIFE HE WOULD BE HAPPY AND NOT DYING BECAUSE OF ME." I felt blood running down my hand and i feel to my knees and started balling my eyes out.I felt two hands on me."

 Em we will get Greg back but Ace needs you there for him." Winter said to me. I nodded and stood up and i mindlinked Cole to have someone clean up my office. I went back to Ace and i didn't leave his side...... Three weeks passed.... I felt his hand move in mine. 

"Hey babe you are ok. You have been out for three weeks" His eyes opened and he was freaking out.

"Go away i don't wanna see you. Pllllease don't hurt me." He said to me and he got up from the bed and ran to the corner of the room and hugged himself and was rocking. I think he was having a panic attack. I got up and walked over to him i put my hand out and he flinched.

" HELP ME she is gonna hurt me and rape me. Help me." He started yelling. The door opened and Rose,Winter, BLaze,Chris and Alex all run in.I turned to them with a sad look. I was trying not to cry.

" He woke up and now is freaking out. I tired helping him but he won't let me touch me." My wolf cried in my head.I saw everyone go up to him and he wasn't scared of them.I walked up to him

"Babe you need to relax. You are in great pain and you need to rest."I said softly.I reached for his hand but he backed up.

" Getttt away from me you are gonna hurt me like they did. Go die i don't wanna see you ever again." I know everyone was looking at me." Big brother please make herrrr go away,I hate her she didn't save. She was gonna let me die." He said to Blaze. I am really hurt now. I walked out and walked into my office. I said down and faced the window and i couldn't hold in my tears. I would never hurt him and because of Greg he hates me. 

"Cole" I yelled.

"Yes boss" 

"Please go get my paperwork i know i have a lot to do because it's been three weeks and put two guards in front of my office. I only want you in here no one else."

 "Yes boss"

 Not even a minute later he comes in and puts the paperwork on my desk and i nodded at him to leave. I love paperwork sometimes because it gets my mind off of things. I lost both of my parents and my best friend and now i am gonna lose my boyfriend. I knew i should of told him not but no i don't listen to my brain, Stupid heart. I let the boys stay here because Ace needs his brother and everyone else. ....It's been eight weeks and everytime i see him he runs away or goes into a corner yelling for help. I am just gonna give up and let Blaze bring him back to his place because it's taking a toll on me. If someone attacked us right now i would just let them kill me and not fight back.

"COLE" 

"Yes boss"

" Please go and get Rose, Bella and Winter."