Just friends?...yeah right...

chapter 19

--Nour's P.O.V.--

I woke up feeling dirty. Ewww. Is it going to be like this forever? Ugh.

I stepped off the bed. How did I get in Harry's room? I jumped back a little and noticed it was Harry on the floor. I waited for my heart rate to go steady again before I walked two steps closer to him. Now I was hovering over him. Why was he here? He probably didn't want me to be alone. I bended down to kiss his cheek and pulled back up. I grabbed a pair of his sweats and a t-shirt of his. I went in the bathroom, careful not to wake him up, and took a shower.

There is no possible way to feel clean again. Michael took my purity, he took my innocence.

I feel sick, used, every horrible thing under the sun. Why is it when everything is going great, something messes it up?

I realized I had been in the shower for 40 minutes. I got out and got dressed.

Oh shit, I still have to tell Mama about all of this.

I walk out of the bathroom quietly to see Harry still asleep.

I walked down stairs and all of the boys were asleep as well. I gave them each a kiss on the cheek and walked to his kitchen. I was guessing Anne was still asleep too because her keys were still on the table.

I decided to make them all breakfast so I pulled out waffle mix, red food coloring, bacon, and eggs.

I began cooking and singing quietly when someone came in and wrapped their hands around me. I dropped the egg and it broke on the floor.

No! This can't be happening again! I will not get raped again.

"Babe, it's me! I'm sorry! I didn't mean to scare you!" he said.

I turned around and realized it was Louis. I can't act this way forever. Michael ruined me.

"It's okay. I understand but please don't do it again." I said, calming down.

I held my arms out for a hug but he shook his head.

"Louis please. I'm fine, really." I said, my arms stretched open wide.

He looked up and I gave him a reassuring smile.

He hesitantly cam closer and wrapped his arms around me softly.

"I'm not a cracker you know" I teased.

"I know, I just don't want to hurt you." he said, burrying his face in my neck.

I squeezed him harder and he did the same. I heard sleepy footsteps walk in the kitchen and rememebered I was in the middle of making breakfast.

I pulled away from him and smiled. He smiled back and I cleaned up the egg I dropped and began cooking again.

"Morning!" I said, as Harry grabbed a water bottle.

"Morning, you don't have to make us lazy asses breakfast you know." he said.

I laughed, "I know, but I want to."

He came and kissed my cheek and whispered in my ear, "Thank you"

"No, thank you" I replied.

The boys came piling in, one after another. I finished making breakfast and Harry went to go wake Anne up.

She walked down the stairs sleepy and saw the breakfast laying on the table. Her eyes got big and looked up.

"Who did this?" she asked.

They all pointed to me and I waved shyly.

"WOW, this is incredible! thank you!" she said, eyeing it down.