My Fairy.

Chapter 12 - Can't Lose You.

Mew is sitting on his bed, massaging his scalp.

What should I do now... I really have to graduate this time, or else I can't afford Jom's medical bill...

This is crazy. He spent almost all his free times, his money and his energy to work on his thesis but now it's all... gone? Just like that? Without traces??

And I miss Gulf so much...

Whoa, hold on! What did I just think?! No I did not, and I will never want to see him again.

It has been 3 hours since he kicked out Gulf out of his condo. He has been trying to fix the laptop and he tried to fiddling with the laptop but no use. It doesn't work at all, the file is still nowhere, and there's nothing he can do to make it back. But instead of find the solution, now he already miss the naughty fairy?

Usually, when Mew had problems the fairy will be very nosy trying to figure out how to help, but now that the fairy isn't here to meddle with his affair, he kinda feels... ... empty.

No. I don't miss him. It's not true.

I miss Gulf.

NO! Stop! I should try to fix the laptop instead.

Missing Gulf like this after that one particular night where he feels good touching the fairy makes him realising something.

Do I like him or what? But I have been crushing on Eye since way before...

But the more he think about it, the clearer his feeling is to himself.

He definitely has feelings for Gulf.

But with Eye, it's different. Eye has always been a pretty, kind and smart girl, everyone around her loves her. Before Gulf came into his life, Eye is the only one who's kind to him, so there's nothing wrong with adoring her, right? Nothing's wrong with idolized her, right? So does it explain how Mew is blushing so much? Of course you're going to blush so much near someone you idolized, especially when she's literally the pretties girl in the whole campus.

With Gulf, it's way more than that. He feel comfortable, he feels save and he feels... loved. No, it's more than a feeling to a friend. Since friend doesn't kiss and enjoy the pleasure. But Gulf does bring pleasure and joy when they kiss. Mew like it so much when the fairy call his name. He likes it when Gulf's always tag along wherever he goes. He likes it when Gulf's sulking and he will pout all the time. He likes it when Gulf couldn't even cook but he tried to make dish for him. He likes it when he wake up first in the morning and he see Gulf is still in his condo sleeping soundle. He likes Gulf.

In conclusion, with Eye it's only adoration but with Gulf... is it perhaps... love?

Sigh. I do miss him.

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Gulf doesn't know where he should go. He can't go back to heaven since he has to finish his mission first in order to go back, but he doesn't have anyone except Mew on earth.

He couldn't stop crying since he was kicked out. His heart hurt, knowing how Mew has to work hard again to re-do all of his thesis, his heart hurt because he couldn't be by Mew's side when all these problems happen. This is also one of his reason why he doesn't want to go back to heaven yet. He wants to be by Mew's side when he's on the lowest.

It's not like he blamed Mew for this. He's not disappointed nor angry at Mew. After all, it's his own fault. It's because he's too naive, he's too stupid. He's just scared... Scared that this might be his last time meeting Mew. Scared because Mew doesn't want to see his face anymore. Scared because he can't be with Mew any longer. Scared because Mew... didn't keep his promise to be together forever...

I want to go back to Mew...

If he could turn back time, he wants to punch Bright the moment he gave him the flashdisk. Mew spent half of his time to work on his thesis but how could Bright do that to Mew?! If Bright is infront if Gulf right now, he would be already dead because the fairy would have already beat him up so bad.

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For 2 hours long Mew tried to fix his device, he tried to find solutions on the internet, he call some hardware handyman, he tried to click here and there to fix it but nothing seems to work.

He's done for. It was so sunny but suddely he can hear the sound of rain. The water drop as his tears also drop. Mew hit the table with his fist. There's nothing else he can do. He lost both his thesis and someone he loves.

Wait, what? Love?!

Yes. Love. He love the fairy so much. Even after the fairy did that to him, he still want the fairy to come back. He want to hug him, pat him, and kiss him. When his trying to distract him self with fixing his laptop, the thought about the fairy keep appearing.

Where did he go? Where is he now? Did he find some place to stay the night? What is some one bad finds him?

But he try not to care. No, of course he should not care! After what he did? No way Mew wants to take care of the fairy again. What if his 'naiveness' does something careless again in the future? What will it cost him next time?

While he's lost in thought, the rain becomes heavier. Mew glanced at the window, looking at the dark sky. It's going to be so dark and cold tonight.

"DUAR!"

A thunder strikes.

!!!

"Thunder..."

The images of the laughing fairy appear again in Mew's mind.

And he has a flashback of the time when he hugged the scared fairy because the thunder striked that night.

"I hate the thunder. Fairy can die if they're stucked by the thunder. They're evil..."

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"GULF!!!"

🐼To Be Continued⚽️