I'LL SMILE AGAIN

CHAPTER 6

Greg drove straight to the beach, the weather is cool so I'm not worried about getting a flu. We were silent all through the short drive and even as we pull off our shoes and kept them in the car we didn't say anything to each other. This kind of silence in not an uncomfortable one the kind you hustle never say a word and you feel as if you are really bonding with a person, he pulls me close and held me by my waist as we walk on the beach, I sighed contentedly. A few other couples were on the beach strolling too some of them sat on the rocks watching the waves do it's magic. Greg and I just strolled quietly awed by the wonderful work of God, it was a beautiful sight to behold.

"Isabel, I come here every night for my quiet time" that self assured voice sounded like a little child's voice, I looked up into his eyes and see a kind of nervous look I do not reply him cause I don't know what to say to him. I can't help but thinking of the child that's buried under the facade of self assured hot bad boy he wears, I can't be mistaken I know that look. Being an only child with a single mother after dad walked out on us I will sit in the garden directly facing the entrance of our house, hoping he would come back and say he never wanted to leave us, it's being 10years  and sometimes I still cry and hope daddy would come back home.

"Have you ever been to the beach at night" he says  "it's the only thing I'm grateful for since moving down here" he continues not giving me a chance to reply "I'm much of an internet and indoor girl" I reply "pathetic" he says rolling his eyes and we both burst into laughter, he tickles me and I begin to chase him on the beach.

By 10 we got tired of playing on the beach and started to go home ward, when we got to the car he helped me open the car door and closed the door after me. As he got in the driver's sit the atmosphere in the car was electrical we couldn't continue to deny the feelings we have for each other. He reached to help me tuck a stubborn strand of hair behind my ear and I reached to touch his him, cupping his chin in my palm "screw it" he said with his voice thick and before I know it our lips melt. The kiss was slow at first like we were tasting each other, nibbling gently on my lower lips as I moved my hand to his torso, he lost complete control and the kiss was fierce and it was my best kiss, it was giving control and taking control, at that moment I knew to give control is so pleasurable. His hands moved under my shirt and carressed the mound of my breast. "So firm" he whispered in response I kissed him harder, he unhooked my bra and started sucking on one of my nipples why stroking the other one it was electrifying that warm feeling between my legs is so obvious that I'm in pain. I started to reach for his buckle when he stopped me. "No don't!" I recoiled and I was so ashamed of myself both of us panting heavily "it's not you it's me I'm afraid Isabel, I don't want to hurt you, try to understand I'm so messed up" he continued "I care so much about you I  don't want to drag you into my mess" he says "it's okay I whispered ju- just take me home".
I was quite throughout the ride and I stare out of the window as soon as we got to my house I said goodnight without even looking at him as I was about to open the car door he held my hand and told me how sorry he is and how much he wants me. I forgive him after I saw how confused he looks and he managed to make me laugh with him. "Tomorrow night same time"? He says "got you" I replied and whistled my favorite cardib's song all the way to my room and even as I get ready for bed i still have that beautiful smile and I sleep thinking about how Jenny is going to scream when I tell her all that transpired between Greg and I as I fall into Oblivion.