I'LL SMILE AGAIN

CHAPTER 12

GREG'S POV

I watched her storm out of her apartment and I can't help but hate myself, this girl did nothing but love me, I failed her I hate myself I messed up for real this time.
"Do you have any idea where she's headed?" Jenny's voice jolted me out of my thoughts.
"Yeah, to the beach" I reply
"Go after her" she ordered
"I know you love her, I understand you and feel your pain, all you need to do now is show her what she means to you sometimes all a woman needs are words of affirmation, what are you still waiting for go after your forever" she urged laughing
"Thank you Jenny, I have no idea why you doing this for me but I really do appreciate you"
"Now go and don't forget you owe me a drink" she winked as I race out of the apartment...
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I  see her figure on one of the rocks, she is  looking at the sea the night breeze blowing her beautiful long  hair over her face messing the ponytail she styled it in and the way she has her arms around her I can sense she's cold  I get closer to her and I noticed she is staring sadly at the sea and draging her nails lazily through the sand beside her. I walk up to the spot she was sitting and sit beside her.
She noticed I was beside her and without looking at me she said "what are you doing here?"
I feel the resigned and tired look on her face and I can't help but beat myself mentally, oh how badly I have hurt this beautiful and innocent soul.

"I know I've hurt you so much I know I didn't handle the situation well and no explanation can justify what I did I'm wrong alright but I was battling with inner demons Bella" I paused to see her expression, then I continued
"Bella in a near drunk state a guy kissed me and for a moment I thought I kissed him back, I was protecting you Bella, yes ignoring you is not the right way to do that but I wanted to think with a clear head I wanted to know who I really am, I had questions Bella, my world was falling apart I-I..."

"You didn't trust me with to help you through your dark times!!!" Her scream echoed the over the waves
"You thought I'm only in your life for the good times" she said standing up and pointing at my face
"I love you Gregory, I could do anything in the world for you, I thought that's what relationships are for standing by each other through the good and bad times but Greg you had doubt about your sexuality and off you ran" she is shaking now and I'm so scared I feel I'm losing her and I keep beating myself, oh what sort of fool am I ? How do I assure her it won't happen again? How do I get her back?
"I'm sorry Bella" I said through tears, I didn't know I've started crying too
"I can't live without you, with you is where my life starts and where it ends, those months were the craziest and meaningless months of my life, I don't know I'm scarred I didn't want to hurt you I was scared of hurting the only person who love me without conditions yeah! My parents are rich freaking rich Bella, but they don't give a hoot about me, I'm the envy of other children but if only they knew how lonely and how much I hate myself they won't ever envy me Bella".

"Shhhhhhhh, how can I ever hate you Greg, I forgive you even before you asked how can I ever stop loving me my highs are the little things that only I know and those are the things that made you mine and mine alone Greg and you are also where my life begins and you with you is where it will end because you are my special place" Bella sealed are promise with a kiss on my lips, oh what have I done to deserve this strong woman she just saved us and I can't help but hug her tightly...

" You remember the first time we came to the beach here?" She asked me catching me by surprise
"Yeah" I say speechless
"I promised to be your forever, and now I'm promising you again Gregory, the God that knows billions of shooting stars in their galaxies being our witness. Gregory I will love and stand by you, through every steps and every phase of our lives we gonna be right by each other, there's no one I rather spend my life with and there's no where I rather be but by your side always and forever" she said with so much conviction cupping my face with my hands and I can't help but be grateful and relived.

"I forgive you Gregory, for the sake of our love I really do forgive and I'm ready to move past this, forgiveness is the scent of violet on the heel of he who crushed the petal after all"

"I don't really deserve you Bella, I'm sorry I hurt you I didn't really mean to  I won't do it again I promise never to hide anything from you"
"You won't even get a chance to Greg cause home is wherever you are and now that I forgive you I feel so light weighted and oh I miss you"
"I miss you more babe all those months were the most empty months of my life never have I felt so useless in all of my life"
And it is to forever we both say as our lips locked against each other hungrily...