I'LL SMILE AGAIN

CHAPTER 9

GREG'S POV ( Point of view)

I'm feel so empty, useless and numb it's been 5months and 6days since I walked out on Isabella, my life as been cloudy I feel like I want to die, she is my sunshine. I'm sorry I don't mean to hurt her, I'm only protecting her being with her would be selfish, I've failed her. I can't help but stalk her, she's mostly on the beach lately and I'm so scared for her, I know she misses me as much as I miss her and I've been wondering why she hasn't come looking for me.
Her bright eyes is what captivated me the first time I saw her, and I can't help but call her sunshine, she's my sunshine, she took away all those loneliness and sadness I feel, she makes me laugh and she made me feel loved for the very first time in my life.
My parents has always chosen both of their careers before me making it obvious that I wasn't planned, a mistake that's what I'm to to them and as a result I'm left with different kind of people called baby sitters until I was old enough to look after myself. I've always longed for their love and affection that my only goal in life is to please them, to make them notice me and tell me how much they want me, all I want is for us to seat at the dinning table and eat like a family, go on family trips and talk like a family but they are rarely home to do that with me and even when they are home they are usually stuck in their various study.
Isabella gave me all that I've ever craved for on a platter of Gold, the first time she invited me to dinner at hers I felt like an alien and the way Nora (Isabella's mum)  accommodated and showed interest in me gave acceptance a new meaning. I experienced love for the first time in my life with them and they always make me feel special and I can't but fall over head in love with Isabella.
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I felt her before i saw her, her knocking on the door jolted me out of my deep thought. I cautiously opened the door and let her in, even as messy as she is she looks so beautiful. I say "Hey"  "Hey yourself" she says walking into the apartment "nice place you got" she continued as she settled on the couch, I follow her and stand beside the couch she's sitting on shifting from foot to foot.
"It's about time you tell me what got into your head" she eyed me "can I get  you anything?" I asked ignoring her question, "The least you owe me is an explanation and i won't move an inch from here if you don't tell me what you have in that head of yours" she threaten.

Oh God how did she manage to be so beautiful even when she's so sad and angry, and I remember how we would play do or drink with her getting silly drunk, I don't know what pushed me but before I know it I'm striking a deal with her and I can't even stop myself.
"You remember that drunk game we play Bella?" I hear myself asking and surprisingly she is in for it, "I will do anything to bring the truth out of you" she says boldly.
We are on the floor with a bottle of Hennessy and two half filled cups between us we have been playing this game for 30minutes now and she's already giggling uncontrollably a sign that she's drunk, surprisingly I'm enjoying it and before we know it we are kissing each other so desperately as if it was our last kiss. "I miss you so much" I said holding her tightly "I probably won't remember tomorrow" she said laughing "now come make love to me" she continued and in a blink of an eye our clothes were scattered all over the place and we rode into the bliss of our own world without a care in the world bare body and soul, tearing at each other and hungrily...