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thursday, 8am

y/n and san spent the whole night comfortable in each other's arms. san wanted to kiss her again on many more occasions but was too nervous to initiate it.

until they woke up, and y/n immediately turned over to face san and kissed him straight on the lips.

"woah, what was that for?" san chuckled. not that he was complaining.

"I just wanted another taste"

"another taste of what?" san asked

"another taste of..." her immediate reaction was to say "what it's like to be yours" - but she just giggled and lied, "your lips".

san chucked, "well let me know if you want another taste" he flirted. his face then became serious. "I have to work again today..."

"don't worry" she replied. "I'll find something to do"

"babe...uh, I mean... uh, y/n" he went bright red.

y/n just laughed. "yes?"

"please don't go home again, at least, not without me. I'm gonna be worried about you"

"I won't go anywhere today. I promise, don't worry about me"

"I can't help it. I couldn't bare anything to happen to you"

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sitting alone again in san's empty house as the tv played in the background, y/n's mind drifted to mingi. she wondered if he was okay, if he was home, if someone was taking care of him.

the bruises were starting to turn yellow now, the injury on her forehead only throbbed intermittently. but she couldn't forget, she couldn't forget how scared she had felt in the presence of the man who was supposed to make her feel the most at ease. a shiver passed down her spine as she remembered every occasion that mingi had hurt her and how those memories were able to cloud every single other good one she had shared with him.

her train of thought was cut short by the sound of her phone ringing in her hand. she looked at the screen - yunho.

as much as she didn't feel like talking, she was worried there might be something wrong with mingi, and this compelled her to answer.

"urm... hi y/n" he spoke. "I didn't know if you'd want to know how mingi was doing or not... he told me everything..."

"I want to know - how is he doing?" she quickly replied.

"he's okay. he's coming back home tonight, I'm going to go pick him up... look y/n, I'm really sorry for everything that happened" he began, but as she was about to reply, he continued, "but you know he isn't a bad guy, right? he just made a couple of mistakes. he's having a hard time right now"

"he's having a hard time?!" she spat. she couldn't believe what she was hearing. well - she could. yunho had been mingi's bestfriend since childhood, he always defended him no matter what. apparently even to this extent.

"he loves you and he misses you so much. if you think, apart from these last few days, has he ever done anything else shitty? I mean I know there was the pictures-"

"-what pictures?!" what was he talking about?

"he said he told you... he said you were a little mad at him but that you forgave him"

"what fucking pictures?!"

"you sent him some pictures or something ... nude pictures... and he sent them to me... and yeosang" he said, naming their other friend.

"what the fuck?!"

"oh shit" came the voice from the other side of the phone.

flashbacks came back to her as she sat trying to catch her breath, her eyes wide and temperature rising. mingi loved dressing her up in different underwear and taking pictures of her. just for him, he said. to look at when she wasn't around. but one time she remembered him saying;

"fuck, baby, you're so hot. I wish everyone else could see what I've got, all to myself. so they could see but know they couldn't touch"

"I'm gonna go now" she told yunho.

"wait, wait! I'm sorry, I didn't know you didn't know. he was just fascinated by you-"

"-stop talking, yunho"

"please come see him tonight when he gets home. it would mean the world to him"

"I'm hanging up. goodbye" she said, pressing the button on her phone as her breath hitched in her throat.

what else had mingi done that she hadn't known about? he could have even been with another girl and she wouldn't have known. she never would have thought he was capable - but then she didn't think he was capable of punching her several times either.

anger rising in her, she ran to the kitchen and searched through san's cupboards. there had to be some alcohol somewhere in here. and then she found it - a bottle of strong liquor. she stared at it in her hand. it was only 2pm - was she really about to start drinking this early? san would be mad if he came home to her in a mess.

but at that moment, a message lit up her phone - it was from mingi. it was long, she could tell from the preview.

baby🥰

babe. I know you probably don't want to hear from me right now but I need to tell you something and I wasn't sure if you would answer the phone. I know you're with san now but baby, I love you. I'm so, so sorry for what I did. but remember how happy we were together before this - 6 years of memories. you know I'd do anything for you. I'll do anything to make this up to you. I know you probably won't take me back but I have to try cos you're the only reason I'm still alive. I can't leave you without trying x

had yunho put him up to this? how could he beg for her back after everything he'd done? did he really think she'd forgive him?

"fuck you, mingi" she spat out loud to the empty house.

she closed the message down which left only the wallpaper on her phone. it was a picture of her and mingi. not just a picture but her favourite picture of them both. it was during a trip to london at christmas. there were pretty lights in the background. she remembered that it had been freezing; no amount of clothes could have kept her warm. and it was snowing which was romantic to start with, but after a while they were just really wet. but she hadn't cared. it had been the best trip of her life because she was with the man she loved: her soulmate.

she remembered the feeling of the icy wind on her face, the lights sparkling all around and the sound of the jolly festive music and then poured herself a large glass of the liquor.