I hear muffled talking and try to open my eyes. After about five minutes my eyes finally open and I look down at my wrist. There are stitches on a deep cut, and the last thing I remember is everything going black and thinking about the boys.
"She's awake." I hear someone say I tear my eyes from my wrist and look up to see all five of the lads staring at me.
"How long have I been asleep?" I ask.
"You only were out for the night." Louis said.
"Oh what day and time is it?" I ask.
"It's Saturday and it's currently ten in the morning." Zayn says casually.
"Why?" Louis asks.
"Why what?" I say looking ashamed because I know exactly what he's talking about.
"Why did you hurt yourself?" Louis asks. I look at all the lads Zayn looks worried Harry and Niall looked pained and Liam looks like he wants to say something.
"I cut m-myself because it takes away the pain of my reality, the blade is my bestfriend." I say putting it into the simplest words.
"Oh." Is all Louis says, I then hear Louis stomach growling.
"Your hungry go eat." I say.
"I'm not that's one of the other lads stomachs grumbling." Louis says looking guilty.
"No it wasn't Louis tell me what's going on why aren't you eating?" I ask.
"I-I I'm anorexic." Louis states I sit in the couch in shock.
"I have insomnia." Zayn states and now that I really look at him I can see the dull bags under his eyes.
"I'm currently under depression." Niall says sadly his eyes are so bland and dull not full of life like they usually are.
"I have paranoia." Harry says looking very sad but relieved.
"A-and I h-have s-social anxiety." Liam says.
"That's why you never talk to me, and thats why your never hungry." I say to Liam and Louis.
"Yes we are very sorry none of us had the guts to tell you until now." Zayn said.
"It's ok I didn't plan on telling you guys that I self harm but since you saw it already. I thought I might as well be open about it to you guys." I say back.
"I feel like someone's going to kill me." Harry says looking around.
"It's ok Harry no ones in here." I say trying to comfort him now that I know he has a disorder.
"Stop talking you bitch." Harry says.
"I'm so sorry I didn't mean it, it's very hard to hide my paranoia I'm sorry so sorry." Harry said while covering his ears and rocking.
"It's fine." I say, it's extremely unreal how these boys hid there disorders from me.
"W-what do you wanna do?" Liam asks.
"I have no idea we could watch a movie maybe?" I ask.
"Sure what movies do you have Louis?" Liam asks, I know it's going to take him a while to talk to me like he talks to the other lads.
"We can't watch horror movies because of Harry, so how about ride along?" Louis says.
"Sounds great." says Harry twitching a little I still can't believe how him out of everyone was unnoticed by me. Louis put the movie in and I sat on the couch between Zayn and Louis while Niall, Harry, and Liam laid on the ground.
"Come on let's go pop some popcorn." Louis said while reaching out for my hand.
"You guys can play the movie if the previews are over before we get back from popping the popcorn." Louis said.
"Ok." Niall said. Louis and I then went into the kitchen to pop some popcorn.
"Lou Lou?" I asked.
"Hm?"
"How do you cope with not eating?" I asked.
"It's hard I see food and my stomach growls but then my mind tells me how disgusting it is to eat." he says.
"Can you eat for me?" I asked. While he grabbed the bag of popcorn out of the microwave and put another in there.
"S-sure." Louis said. He then opened the bag of popcorn that was already popped and picked one piece of popcorn up. He then hesitantly put the popcorn in his mouth and swallowed loudly.
"Thank you, you have became my bestfriend and only a day ago I first met you Lou Lou." I said I leaned in to give him a hug. We were still hugging when we heard someone cough. Louis and I jumped apart and watched as an angry Niall snatched up a big bowl and poured the three bags of popcorn in and stormed off into the living room with the other lads. I wonder what that was all about?
"Come on let's go watch the movie Macky." Louis said to me. I followed behind him and when we reached the living room I saw Niall glare at Louis.
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A/N so there's my update aaliya. Comment and vote please tell me whT you think of my story.
