Passion

i am either in love or in lust

Evan has never gone to my house nor has he met anyone other than Leo. I wasn't planning to introduce him to anyone or let him come by any time soon either. Unless we dated. But that never happened.

I never expected him to ask me out or anything. That was apart of the deal we had anyways. We wouldn't catch feelings for one another.

When we got home, Evan helped but away all the food and utensils we had brought from the store earlier today.

"Thank you, Evan, for helping me today." I said once we had finished. We were in my room laying on my bed just listening to music

"It was no problem. I'm glad I help the most beautiful human being on this Earth." He said. I didn't cringe like other times. I just took the compliment and enjoyed it because he was the most thoughtful person I know right now.

I looked up at him and just smiled. I got off him, deciding that I should look for an outfit for tonight.

"You can help me look for an outfit for tonight, if you want?" I said as I got to the edge of the bed.

Before I could completely get off, Evan pulled me back by my arm. I turned my head to face him, his was only inches away from mine. Without warning, he crashed his lips onto mine. He kissed me like he did at school. With the same kiss that made me feel good. 

I broke the kiss but kept my face close to his. He placed his forehead on mine while we catched our breath. I closed my eyes as I felt him pull away. 

"Luna I have something to tell you." He said sitting himself up.

"Okay." Was all I said before he got up and started pacing around my room.

"We've known each other for quite sometime. And I feel like I know you like the back of my palm. Luna," He trailed off. I felt like I already knew what he was going to say. "I love you."

"Oh." Was all I really had to say. Not exactly what I had in mind. It took me a minute for his words to fully sink in. Once I had collected myself, I spoke up. "You don't love me." I told him.

I got up and walked towards my closet. He doesn't understand what love is. And to be completely honest, neither do I. We were just in lust.

"Luna, I do love you. Every time I see you I get butterflys in my stomach. My heart skips beats everytime you smile or laugh. Luna I know I love you." He said behind me.

I turned around to face him. "I'm stunned, Evan. I'm sorry but I don't love you." I said and his face droped. "But I do like you."

He looked at me through hopeful eyes and kissed me. I kissed back as my fingers tangled themselves with his hair. He let a soft groan into my mouth. He pulled away and whispered, "Be my girl."

I crushed my lips with his harder than before. My hands lead themselves to the hem of his shirt, tugging it off. We pulled apart to take his shirt off.

"I'll be yours, Evan." I said with so much lust in my voice, caught in the moment. We kissed once again, taking each others clothes off. He laid me down on the bed, our lips still attached and in sync with one another.

His lips left mine and started leaving small, wet ones on my neck and down to my chest. By now my body was exposed to him while he only remained in his boxers. Every time he moved his hips, his bulge rubbed on my leg. I would do the same to tease him.

Once he had reached my chest, his mouth hovered over my right nipple. With his tongue, he flicked it over my nipple while one hand messaged my other boob and the other hand touched my sweet spot in between my legs. 

I moaned softly as he rubbed me in between my legs. He took himself off of my aching body to take his boxers off and slip a condom on. Evan and I have had sex plenty of times and to me, this time feels like those past times. Yes, I do like him but this is just sex to me. Not love.

I laid still on the bed while he opened my legs and adjusted himself with my entrance. Slowly, he entered me. It took me little time to adjust myself to his length but after I did, it felt amazing.

"Luna," He moan my name. "You feel so good, baby." He leaned his head down and softly kissed my lips. He increased his speed. I moaned into the kiss giving him the chance to stick his tongue in my mouth. He pulled away from the kiss and placed his lips on my neck, once again he sucked on my neck like before.

"Fuck, Evan." I moan gently, scratching his back as his thrust slowed down but became deeper.

I moaned louder as I came close to my high. "Baby, don't hold it in. Come for me, Luna." Evan said in between groans of pleasure. My walls clenched onto Evans member as I came closer and closer to releasing.   

He thrusted into me a couple of times before we both came as the same time. Thank god the walls were thick. 

"Fuck. I love you, baby." He said, rolling off to my side and placing his sweaty head on my bare chest. We just laid there in silence while he drew small circles on my stomach. 

I'm not in love with him but I do like him. Yet this is only lust to me. And he probably thinks he is in love with me but that't not it. He just loves the feeling my body can give him. 

He probably thinks my body is his home now.