Forbidden In Love (Kiribaku)

Holding In Tears

Eijirou's p.o.v

   I knew this was coming bit I still felt jealous. It was pretty difficult not to. I just wanted to be with him. But I also wanted him to be safe from death which, if he chose me, wouldn't be possible. The kingdom hated people like us so it was better for us to hide the way we felt rather than act on our feelings. That's probably why I felt jealous of her. Because she could love him freely and I had to stand from the sidelines. I decided to meet up with Yagi to see if he needed help with anything. Since Kats was occupied with his future wife, I needed to busy myself before I was punished. I finnaly saw him and ran up, begging for something to do. "Ei, there isn't much to be done. If you'd like, you can help in the kitchen with the other workers. The two kings said they would talk over lunch like the kids so I'm sure they'd like their food as soon as possible." He insisted, pointing to the kitchen. "Thank you. I'll be right on it." I stated, dashing into the kitchen and grabbing food for the lunch feast. I picked up as much as I could, unable to identify what it was. I wasn't used to the fancy cooked meals so, I didn't know too many food types. Maybe noodles of some kind? I carried the bowls into the big room they were in.

   Walking through the doors, they all sat in silence. I served them the bowls while the other 'server' passed around their wine glasses. "Why is he serving us?" The King from the other kingdom called out. I never got the chance to hear what the kingdom was called. "The kitchens work is for women. Why is he here?" The king called out to the other woman. She instantly went red and dragged me away by my arm. Once outside, she hushedly spoke. "Why were you in there?" She whisper shouted. "I was told to bring the food to them. I was simply following orders." She sighed and pinched the bridge of her nose. "Well, kitchen work is for women. You best not be found serving from the kitchen again." And with that, she walked away. My mood instantly dropped alot more than it already was. I found Yagi again, back upstairs straightening out Kats room. "What's got your mood down?" He asked, sitting down on a chair. I took a seat on his bed. "Oh, it's not important." I said, forcing a smile on my face. "I can tell when someone fakes a smile. I halfway raised Katsuki and I could tell. It's okay to tell me." He smiled, offering his support.

   "I like him." I mumbled, burying my face in my hands. "But I'm not allowed to." I peeked behind my hands to see his shocked face. He didn't seem upset at all, just sat there silently. "He hasn't spoken to me about you yet but he isn't happy about this marriage." He assured me, walking over and rubbing my back. "These feelings are wrong aren't they? I should just get over it. It would never happen in the first place so I should get over it while I have the chance. Otherwise I know that when he gets married I won't be over him." I wiped my eyes and tried to stop crying. "Your feelings are okay and normal. Do you know how many people are suppressing their feelings out there because they don't feel safe being themselves? They'd rather fake who they are then be their true selves. I'm more proud of the people who are called criminals for loving who they want to. They can't help who they love and they get killed and berated for it. So, before you say you should suppress your emotions, think about how strong you're being accepting yourself already."

   I felt better after he talked me through my little episode. He was like a parent to me and I loved his views on things. He was so accepting and saw things in a way nobody else did. Things seemed to be getting better. "The king needs me down in the ballroom. Would you like to come with me?" I nodded, wiping away the stray tears from my cheeks and straightening up my clothes and face. After I seemed to be normal, I followed Yagi down to the ballroom. "Ah yes. I'd like you to meet one of the best members of our staff; Yagi." The king introduced. I followed behind him quietly. I probably wasn't even supposed to be in here. He waved to them kindly and bowed with a smile. They seemed to like him. I couldn't say the same for myself. "Get the kids." He barked out towards me. I nodded quickly, exiting just as soon as I came. Walking down the halls, I started searching rooms to get them. I heard laughing come from the garden room. I gently opened the door and greeted myself. "Your presence is requested in the ballroom." I stated. Usually I wouldn't be this stuck up around him but I wanted to make a good first impression to his future bride.

   "You don't have to be like that around her. She's good." Kats assured me, gesturing towards the princess. "Well, it's nice to meet you then. I'm Eijirou Kirishima but you can call me Ei." I greeted. "Thanks. My name is Jirou." She greeted. "Well, we should head to the ballroom before the king gets more upset at me." I smiled, opening the door and leading them out of the room. We made it back in a matter of minutes and they were greeted. I walked over to Yagi helping him clear out a space on the floor. "What's this for?" I hushedly whispered. The king, however, answered before I could. "I would like you to practice your dance for Friday." They both looked at each other in disbelief, then grabbed hands and walked to the floor. I stood to the side and decided to watch. They started in the middle, held close onto each other. They started silently swaying, no music playing, just the silent agreement that this is what was acceptable. This is what was okay because if it was me, we wouldn't live to see the sun of tomorrow. But I guess this is what I had decided to accept. So I watched silently,

Holding in tears.