Angel Of Mine

12

There was a crash...
And then nothing...
Only black.

I could hear people talking but i couldn't tell who or what they were saying. I was in pain, but i didn't want to wake up.

My body felt so tired... I let go and went back to sleep once again.

~time skip~

I had no idea how long i slept for but i didn't dream, so it couldn't be that long right?

I hurt too much to move and i was to afraid to open my eyes, because i didn't want john to be what i saw when i did.

The memories of what happened hit me like a truck and i couldn't help but to flinch and a whimper left my lips. When i whimpered it hurt like hell, but i began to feel hands shaking me.

I flinched at the touch. Please don't be john. They started speaking but i still couldn't quite make out what they said, i was too tired.

I struggled for a good minute to open my eyes, there was a bright light and i could start to understand what they said "-it's ok. You're safe. Noone's going to hurt you"

I looked around, i was in a hospital room? And the man shaking me was a doctor.

I kept looking around for blake, i needed him here. With me. I looked and double checked but i didn't see him.

What happened to him, i need to know. I began to sit up when he interrupted "whoa, take it easy" but i couldn't. I was still scared.

I tried to ask about blake but everytime there was a pain in my throat that hurt so bad i cried. But i had to know. "Hey, stop trying to talk. You were in a crash, it broke your lower leg and something caused severe damage to your vocal cords. You won't be able to talk for a long time."

I looked down at me left leg, which was in a cast. And felt for my throat when i felt a bandage on it "we had to take you into surgery for it. I'm sorry for what happened." He handed me a paper and pen "what did you want to know?"

I quickly scribbled out 'blake' despite the pain that shot through me. He took the paper and looked at me with struggle in his eyes, oh no. What happened?

"He is alive and ...well" i was relieved but still worried "he took a bullet, he's immortal so it didn't take much damage, but he did get hurt. He's in a room a few doors down getting some rest, when he wakes i'll ask if he wants to visit you"

He wanted to keep talking but i didn't care, i was crying my eyes out. It was my fault and i couldn't save him.

The doctor left the room, which made it worse because i was now alone with ...them

You're pitifule

Weak

He loved you

And you betrayed him

He probably lied but you were dumb enough to believe it

You loved him

But only caused him pain

Kill yourself

You don't deserve this life

You don't deserve him

You're a horrible person

They were loud and getting louder, there words circling in my head. I covered my ears trying to stop them but it didn't work.

They were right, i'm a horrible person and i didn't deserve any of the good treatment i was given. I should just kill myself, he'd be better off without me.

Everyone would. I loved him, so i need to do what's best for him. Leave. Leave this god forsaken life. I hated it.

I was hitting my head trying to get the voices to leave. ...it didn't work

I was crying and i heard the heart rate monitor go crazy but i didn't care. I wanted to die.

A bunch of nurses and doctors came in, asking what's wrong. I pushed them away, 'just let me die, i hate myself'

I felt a sharp pain in my shoulder, a shot. I eventually fell back to sleep.