Little Miss Not So Perfect

Chapter Seventeen

      The rest of the day passed in a blur. Chase brought Mike to the hospital and said he found him on the side of the road like that. He covered for me; he protected me. Mike kept going in and out of consciousness during the trip to the hospital. He muttered a bunch, but none of it really made much sense.

      I was terrified that as soon as he woke up, he’d tell someone at the hospital what I did. Chase tried his best to reassure me that Mike wouldn’t tell them. He tried to tell me I did the right thing, the only thing I could’ve done in that situation. I wasn’t sure I believed it. Sure, I understood I was defending myself but I’m not sure if I was trying to defend myself from Mike. Part of me believed him when he said he wasn’t going to hurt me. Part of me believed his whole story.

      Chase brought me back to his house. He knew I was in so state of mind to be alone. We went up to his room and I immediately crawled into his bed. I needed to do something to feel warm and safe.

      Chase grabbed my hand, “You’re freezing, Syd. Why don’t you take a hot shower?” He suggested.

      I shook my head and pulled the blankets over me, “I just want to lie down for awhile.” I replied. I wasn’t sure what I was supposed to be doing. I thought I killed Mike back there; I thought I had become something I never even imagined as a possibility of my future.

      “I think you’re in shock,” Chase stated.

      “Wouldn’t you be?” I snapped.

      He shrugged, “You were scared and you acted out to defend yourself. There is nothing wrong with that.” Chase stated calmly.

      “I aimed for his head. I purposely aimed for his temple Chase. I knew what could happen if I hit his temple hard enough and I didn’t care. I didn’t just hit him to knock him out,” I admitted.

      “Sydney, you have never been in that kind of situation. You just acted,” he came over and grabbed my shoulders, forcing me to look at him, “You didn’t try to kill him. I’ve known you my whole life and you never would have tried to kill him or anyone for that matter.”

      “That’s what I always thought.”

      “That’s what you should think. You are a good person,” Chase told me.

      “I hope I still am,” I told him. Chase lied down next to me and pulled me close to him. He felt so warm; I couldn’t help but cuddle closer to him. He also felt safe. I knew nothing else could hurt me right now. Before I knew it, I was falling asleep in Chase’s arms.

      I woke up to the loud bang and an angry Blake bursting through the door. Chase must have fallen asleep too because he was just as startled as I was.

      “Juliette told me Mike picked you up at school, and then you’re not answering your phone at all. Then Chase disappears in the middle of class, and he decides to not answer as well. What the hell is going on with you two? Do you realize how worried I was all day? I couldn’t get ahold of either of you, and I had no clue what could have happened.” Blake ranted.