Anger issues || jjk

Chapter 5

"ARE YOU DUMB! HAHAHAHAHA ME? WHY WOULD IT BE ME?!" I exclaim wiping the water on my chin that just came out of my mouth. "Jungsoo, you don't know me well enough yet, I'll explain everything after music, okay?" I still couldn't believe she thought I was the person jungkook was talking about. "Okay but like I don't think I'll ever believe you." And we continue to walk to the music department.

"Okay class, we were working on the playing ode to joy on the keyboards last week weren't we?" We were in music class and I sat next to dahyun since there was a spare seat. We went to music as a home room so all 7 boys were there. Everybody answered her question with a yes and got up to go to there keyboards. I noticed jungkook wasn't there. Wait why did I notice he wasn't there? Ugh I really need to stop. I shouted at my self in my head. I had no place to go so I went to the front to tell the teacher.

"Ah, you must be the new girl, there are no keyboards in the classroom for you so just go to one of the music rooms in the corridor." I follow her instructions and walk to the first room on the left. It was empty so I decided to go in. Wow! The piano was majestic. It was so big and just how I remember it being like. I haven't played in  years so I don't know how bad I got. I go to the chair and run my fingers over the keys. I press one and then another and another. I think I remember how to play. As I'm playing I see something on the side of me. It was a computer that was on and it had a music software on. I decided to press play and heard it.

One of the best melodies I've ever heard. My past drowned me as I listened on and the words just kept coming out of me.

(Song by Tate McRae)

Some days, I wonder why the sky's so grey
Some days, I wonder if I'm on the same page
Oh all these voices and noises
And all these bad choices
It crazy, I haven't gone insane
And all these people so careless
Who I can't confront yet
Cause you know I'd just get in the way

So at 3 am I go to the roof
And I talk back to the moon
Oh at 3 am I look up to the sky and always wonder why
I'm always by myself, sellllllfffff
And nobody's gonna love me

(I changed the last few lyrics)

Without warning, I just start bawling my eyes out. Loudly. "Don't cry." I hear behind me. Oh shit I know who this is. I wipe the tears and turn around to be met with they eyes of jeon jungkook.

"What are you doing here?!"
"This is the room I always practice in." He walks towards me and grabs a chair to sit next me. "Oh- Oh I'm sorry the teacher told me to come here and we'll it was empty so I thought nobody was in here and well I saw the computer and it had this thing on it and I played it and the words just came out of me." I said all in one go. It was awkward silence and I was trying to look anywhere but his face.

I put my hand on the piano when he grabbed it. "W-What are you doin-" he cut me off by putting his finger to my lips. "Shhhh. Now let me talk." He held my hand in both of his big ass hands. Can I just say his hands look amazing. Wow I didn't know hand could look this nice. "Who hurt you so much that those words came out of you?" How was I supposed to tell him that?! I couldn't, no I wouldn't. I stayed silent. "If you don't tell me, I'll have to force it out of you." What the heck does that mean? "I don't want to tell you, so I don't have to."
"You're right." And he stared deep into my eyes. It made me want to tell him everything. Like he was my knight that came to save me from all my past worries.

I turned my head to avoid spilling everything in an instant but he grabbed my chin and place it back. "Let me look at you." WTFFFFFFF. AHHH THE BUTTERFLIES IN MY STOMACH ARE GOING CRAZY AND MY FACE IS SHOWING IT I KNOW IT. And they were because he caressed my cheek. "Your blushing, that means you like it." My eyes went back and forth between his eyes and his lips and of course mr jeon jungkook noticed that as well. Keep in mind he was still hold my chin and caressing my cheek. "I see what you're looking at." I need to say something NOW.

"O-oh I'm sorry if it was m-making you uncomfortable, I w-won't do it a-again." Why the fuck was I stuttering?! No way! I was getting nervous because of him!!! He was getting closer so I was backing away. Nope, didn't even let me do that. He let go of my face and put his hand on my back to push me forward. Onto. His. Lap. Now what the actual fuck was happening. My heart was beating so fast I could die in a second. But I didn't. "Don't worry, I don't mind you looking there, as long as I can look at yours."
"W-wha-" and then it happened.

He pushed his lips onto mine in an instant and kissed me. My heart was beating and I could hear that his was too. My hands crawled into his hair and I moved closer up his lap. His hands were holding my head to keep our lips tightly together. We moved our heads and didn't let go. My legs felt numb and don't even get me started on the butterfly's. He was an amazing kisser. We were soon out of breath so we let go. What the fuck did I just do. I tried to look anywhere but his face again and again he didn't let me. "Now are you not even gonna tell me where you learnt to kiss so great." I should be asking him that. "My ex." WAIT DID I JUST SAY WHAT I THINK I SAID. I covered my mouth in an instant with both of my hands. He giggled. AW HIS GIGGLING WAS SO CUTE. AHHHH! NO IT ISNT STOP IT.

"So I guess, it was your ex who made you cry just now as well."
"U-uh y-yeah..."
"Good to know. I can do a lot with that information." Wait what? What does that mean? He pushed me off his lap quite aggressively. "That kiss meant nothing."
"w-w-What?"
"Yeah, you heard me, it meant NOTHING." How could he just do this? He literally kissed me with no emotion basically and is gonna use what I just confessed against me?

Why? Why would he do that?

A/N sorry for mistakes :))