✔️Lost My Way - Kang Yeosang (ATEEZ)

Chapter 17

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San then questioned "well how did she get the love bite if she didn't hook up with a random guy?"

"For fuck sake San, it was one of Ateez". He screamed.

San knew that he had fucked up as soon as Seonghwa said those words.

"What?" He asked shocked. San had said to the guys that Aubrey is off limits but he is kind of glad it was someone he knew and not just a random person. San just wanted too protect his best friend as much as he could. He didn't want her to leave him again, which he agreed was selfish of him but he didn't want to be without her again.

San knew he shouldn't have said those things to her but he is the kind of person that says thing before he thinks. He will never forgive himself he thought as he sat up against the wall, curling himself up in a ball.

Seonghwa felt bad for San but he was also still angry that he would say anything like that to his friend in the first place. Why should it matter who she hooks up with? At the end of the day, she should be able to do what she wants.

San decided he needed to relieve some stress, so he grabbed his pack of cigarettes and walked out. Seonghwa grabbed his arm before he left "please don't hurt her again. She is already going through too much" he begged San remembering the pain she was in earlier from her thoughts.

San nodded and left the room. However, he was confused. What did Seonghwa mean by 'she is going through too much'? Why didn't she tell him her problems. She knew that San would do anything to help her in any way.

San got down the stairs and went to the smoking area out the back of the hotel. He didn't want to go to the front incase he saw fans there.

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Meanwhile Aubrey had got up as she couldn't really sleep. She had too much going on in her head. She went to open the curtains and looked outside. She could see San, in the smoking area. The only reason she knew it was San was because of the red streaks in his hair.

She didn't want him smoking so she wrote Yeosang a note saying she would be back in a bit and ran downstairs.

When she got to the smoking area, San was facing away from her. She went behind him, took his cigarette, threw it on the floor and stomped on it. "What the fu-?" San hissed turning around but stopped when he realised it was Aubrey.

"Don't harm your body, please" Aubrey whispered which San only just heard it. Aubrey looked up and realised his eyes were red. He had too been crying. Aubrey sat down on one of the benches near them and San joined.

They both didn't speak for about 10 minutes, then they both said "I'm sorry"in sync. San shook his head "you shouldn't be sorry! This is all my fault Bree. I'm so sorry I hurt you" San cried out. "I should have never said those things about you, because it's not true. You can be with whoever you want to be with and do whatever you want. I'm just scared to lose you again" San exclaimed.

He then added "I'm sorry I told the guys that you are off limits, I didn't mean to hurt you by doing it. I was trying to protect you. Sometimes guys will hurt you and I know I did but I don't want to hurt you".

Aubrey nodded taking in everything San said then she replied "I don't want to lose you either but we have to. You are going to tour and I'm going to stay here. We are never going to be able to see each other much. You will always be busy".

San then exclaimed "I had an idea though!" Aubrey nodded to say go on. "We have a job available as a makeup artist on tour. I asked my manger if you could do it as you are amazing at makeup and he said yes. You could come on tour with us and then we wouldn't be apart. I can still see my best friend and you will always have us beside you".