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Just Kiss Me, Idiot
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Have you ever felt lonely just because your best friend have told you that he's not really in the mood of being in a relationship and that he doesn't know if he can date a friend or someone who knows him well and he prefer to date someone out of the country? Like, we've been friends since we're toddlers. He knows how many moles I have in my body. He knows the sound of my breath, he knows the sound of my footsteps, my scent and whatever that you can imagine. But how the hell did he miss the part where I like him? I've been in love with him since grade eight and now that we're adults, how am I suppose to confess? Me being in a hell hole for a week, not eating properly, no to social media accounts, detoxing, won't make any sense. Because all of this is just an excuse! He told me that a week ago and I'm still here, being problematic and gloomy. It feels like my head and my heart is in a rainstorm. I hate this.
"Mingyu!! Wonwoo's here! I told you to shower already!" Mingyu's eyes widened when he heard his mom's voice from downstairs.
no! i'm a mess! i'm a mess! i can't let him see me like this! shit! think!
The door opened and Wonwoo was so surprised to see a clean-addict Mingyu, was curled up in his bed with a lot of mess on the floor. Too many used shirts were sitting on his couch and all of the crumpled papers from the trash bin that's also rolling on the ground makes Wonwoo groaned in disbelief. He grabbed a couple of papers in his hand and started to throw it to Mingyu.
"Hey dickhead! Wake up and clean your room! It stinks, you prick!" Wonwoo said and he now, started to pick his clothes and threw it on the basket.
"Go home! I don't want you here!" Mingyu whined and the empty water bottle landed on his head.
"Do you think I would like to stay here? Your room looks like a dumpster. Your mom called me because she mentioned that you're hiding yourself here in a week. You even lied to me. Detoxing? Is this your way to detox? Kill yourself in here? You can't even sacrifice a day without eating and yet you're here, not eating properly. You want me to what? Feed you? So that you can get on your feet again?" Mingyu's not responding, he doesn't even like Wonwoo when he's nagging. "Mingyu you're making me mad"
Mingyu finally sat down, not minding his messed up face. "Just go home, hyung. I'm just gonna clean this mess myself"
Wonwoo on the other hand was a little bit shocked to see Mingyu's serious face. He's not like this in front of Wonwoo. He's clingy, goofy and always giggly when he's with the older. Him being serious is one of the impossible things to happen. Because Wonwoo admits that Mingyu is scary when he's mad but nothing can make Mingyu mad, especially when it comes to Wonwoo. But the older is well aware that he did say something wrong that's why Mingyu is acting like this but he can't seem to distinguish the specific words he said for Mingyu to act like this.
"I'm gonna apologize on behalf of my mom. I'm gonna tell her to stop calling you if she can't handle me. I'm sorry for bothering you. You can just leave my shirts there. We can hangout next time" Mingyu lost weight and Wonwoo is so mad to himself, that he can't even help his best friend out.
"Mingyu I'm here to help. Tell me what's wrong. How am I suppose to help you if you're like this? You know how I hate it when you don't talk to me" Wonwoo kinda begged, because it's been frustrating to him not seeing Mingyu around him. "I'll do whatever you want. I'll let you cling onto me. I'll let you bother me. Anything. I won't mind. I'm not gonna complain"
"Hyung why are you saying this to me? Tell me" Mingyu was having a little hope, that maybe, maybe a bit, Wonwoo is seeing him as more than a friend.
"Because I'm your best friend. It is my responsibilities to always help you out" with that, Mingyu gave up.
"Just go home, hyung. Just leave" Mingyu left to the bathroom and tears rolled down his face. He secretly cried waiting for Wonwoo to leave.
He knows that he is being too much in a situation like this and he must've just said his feelings and end everything they have. Either move on or just accept it and be friends with him forever, just like what they promised to each other. But what is hurting him right now, is that, he's breaking the rules. They can't keep any secrets to themselves. They have to talk about it no matter what and the thing is, he's been hiding this for 5 years now.
While crying, he heard the door open and close so he stood up and wiped his face.
"Okay, let's tell him some other time. First off, we need to clean the room"
As when he stepped outside, he saw the room so clean. All of the papers were back in the trash bin and all of the clothes that's scattered on the ground were now in his basket, the blankets we're now folded and everything were back to normal.
But the black figure on his right side caught his attention. Her knees trembled making him hold onto the bathroom's door knob.
"H-hyung"
"Mingyu how many times do I have to tell you? I'm not as dumb as you. You think I will leave you here knowing that you're mad at me? I now know what is the answer to my questions" Wonwoo said and walked towards him, cupping his face.
Mingyu started to break down and cried as hard as he can while Wonwoo was just staring at him, wiping his tears gently as he pulled the younger closer to him and kissed his forehead.
"Mingyu, I'm sorry" then he hugged the younger so tight, burying his face on his neck since Mingyu is so tall. "I know how hard it is to keep it all to yourself. I'm just dumb to not notice that. Now that I finally answered the question in my head, I can now properly say this to you"
"I'm sorry, hyung. For not telling you how I feel and just acted like a child. I'm scared that you might not accept me"
Wonwoo let go of Mingyu's warm body and pulled him closer to his own "Kim Mingyu, do you even think of why I let you do things to me? Why I let you bother me, cling onto me, make me things I don't usually do, hugging me to sleep, kissing me here kissing me there, is because I think of you not just a friend or a family. I think of you as a guy, who I can date, who I can be with forever. Have you ever saw me dating other people? Have you ever saw me flirt with our other friends? I only do it with you. I only have one guy in my life. That is you, Mingyu. Why would I find other people if you are the one perfect for me. You can cook, you can make me happy, blush, or even make me like I'm completely your boyfriend. Being with you is the only thing that I want"
"Can you kiss me please?" Mingyu asked with a puppy eyes.
"Just kiss me, idiot"
With that, Mingyu's lips landed on Wonwoo's warm ones. It was a soft kiss, full of love and longing feeling. They've missed each other and they just gave signals to each other that, that kiss was actually what they need in the first place. It's been a week since they last met and Wonwoo actually came to his house because he wanted to see him, it's not that Mingyu's mom really called him. It was an excuse.
"You're making me crazy, Mingyu. But we have to stop here. Unless you have to eat me up instead of a proper meal. Let's get you a nice food first, okay?"
Mingyu slapped Wonwoo's arms while laughing, hiding his blush on the older's chest.
"What? You like it when I'm the one initiating"
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