this girl I met,
her name was Ana
was more beautiful than every sunset.
Her body was tiny
Her skin was shiny
She was so beautiful, all bones and skin.
She reached for my hand and whispered to me:
"We should be best friends, now shouldn't we?"
She showed me how to cut
She showed me how to stop eating
She showed me how to shut
my feelings and all needing.
Her grip got tighter, she screamed to my ear:
"Away from that food or I won't belong here!
Take some water, do some cuts!
Don't you eat, are you nuts?!"
She told me I was fat
That she would help she said
She told me I'm a brat
But never did I realize
She was living in my head.
She tricked my eyes
She tricked my brain
She tricked my heart
She tricked the pain.
My wrist felt numb
My heart felt dead
My hands were cold
She was still inside my head.
She let me starve, she let me cut, but never, ever did she shut
But one day, I thought, I would win, and I commited her biggest sin:
I stuffed myself with calories and fat.
She screamed and screamed inside my head but all I did was getting fat.
And at some point, only some months later
I weighed myself and saw with shock:
I had gained way too much!
And suddenly there was a knock
At the door to my soul and brain
A girl called Ana, she wanted in
And here we go through hell again.
"This time I'll win, this time you won't, so listen to me, don't make a sound!"
Starve yourself and cut again, that's her one and only target.
"If you don't follow my will, I'll get my friend Mia, and together we'll kill!"
She threatened, she screamed, she cried
continued until I was dead inside.
xX, soph
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Cut& shut.
Teen FictionFat. Ugly. Disgusting. Fat. Ugly. Disgusting. I can't shut out those voices in my head But some day, they'll shut me out.
