Silsila Chittiyon Ka- Book 1 Samaina Love Saga

14.

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Here you go,

We met in the temple...amidst the crowd, I hugged him...I cried on his shoulders. I begged him not to leave me...not to abandon me and go. But he couldn't help me...he lied. His promise was a false one.

I decided to let him go after all letting go is the most important part of life...When you can't let go of something you can't survive. I guess it was important to have him his way....to forgo this new friendship for his betterment.I had already given up a happy life and now for the second time in my life I was leaving him...letting him go but why was I so upset that he was going off. Who was he to me than friend? 

I decided that I would write a last letter to him before he would go away for ever. I would let him free like a free bird...let him fly high...let him achieve what he wants. I will forgo my feelings for his happiness....for love is when you let the person you love live happily. Love? Was it? 

Prem   

Tumhari uss chitti padkar mera dil bhar aaya tha...laga ki koi toh hai jisse mein apna keh saku par phir uss din Mandir mein tumse milkar pata chala ki tumne chitti mein joh bhi likha tha, woh juth tha...vaade juth the. Tumme nibhana toh dur, promise ka matlab bhi nahi pata hai. Mandir mein tumse milne sajkar aayi thi, laga tha ki tumhe accha lagega....laga ki khule baalo mein acchi lagungi par pata nahi kya hua ki tumne mile hi mujhe chodne ki baat kar li...pata nahi kya aisa laga ki maa tumhare roop mein aayi thi aur yeh ehsaas dila kar chali gayi ki mere zindegi mein akelepan ke siva kuch bhi nahi hai. Aur isliye maine soch liya hai ki main tumhe iss bandhan se mukth kar dungi humesha humesha ke liye. Chachiji humesha kehti hai agar hum kisi ko sacche dil se chahe toh usse uski kushi de deni chahiye...naahi ki apni iccha ya kushi ke baare mein sochna chahiye. Maine dosti ki thi tumse aur aaj main hi isse tod rahi hu. Mujhe nahi pata ki tum yaha se door London kyu jaa rahe ho...mujhse door, Nanu se door par main tumhe itna toh samajh chuki hu ki...ki tum kisi bade wajah se hi has rahe ho. Dua hai ki tum jis vishay se jaa rahe ho woh pura ho. Aur sorry uss din ke liye. Tumhe mujhse door jaane ki baat sunkar, mujhe dhoka hua... isliye chillane lag gayi aur phir pata chala ki main kitni pagal hu ki tumpe gussa kar rahi hu, isliye gale lagakar rone bhi lag gayi....itna bhi na socha ki tumhe yeh accha nahi lagega. Lekin main maafi mangti hu, maaf karoge na? Please. Tum mujhe bhul jaoge par main nahi bhul sakti...har hafta chitti paane ke liye gate pe Chacha ka intezaar karungi, jis din tumhe yeh lagega ki main tumhari dost ban sakti hu...uss din chitti bej dena. Shayad uss din tumhe lagega ki mujhse zyaada tumhe koi samajh hi nahi sakta....ya phir yeh ki main sirf ek choti si kirdaar jisse tumhe koi faraq padta nahi. Yeh mera wada hai ki main uss chitti ka uttar tab ke tab likh bejungi. Aur jaane se pehle ho sake toh milke jaana...ek baar uss Prem ko dekhna chahti hu jisne mujh jaisi behenji se doati ki...ek baar usse baat karna chahti hu...phir toh tum London chale jaoge...par agar nahi mil paaye toh iss chitti ke sath joh dusri chitti hai usse pad lena. Chittiyon ka silsila ab katam nahi hua hai...Aur kabhi hoga bhi nahi...tab tak jab mujhe tumhara chitti milega iss chitti ke badle!

Tumhari Naina 

With a heavy heart I had written the letter...he was going away from me...from Ahmadabad...from India to London. But he refused to talk the reason...that day in the temple I was a happy would seeing him in his handsome form with that Salman hair falling on him...But the minute he broke this news, I knew it was all a game...played by destiny. It just was hurting me again and again. First it hurt me by taking my mother and then by sending me to Taiji and now it was snatching my Sameer. Maybe tis is what is destined for me...to be alone always. I wiped the tear that tricked down my cheek so that it doesn't fall on the letter...I knew he would understand and I did not want him to know me any further.....there was nothing more I wanted to tell him until he comes back to fulfil the friendship. Somewhere I had a soft corner for him but majorly I hated him for doing what he did...he was leaving me and flying off after the promise of his. I decided to write another letter. 

Mera Sameer 

Tumhe lag raha hoga ki do do chittiya kyu aayi hai...hai na? Agar tum isse pehle kholte ho toh isse rakh do aur dusra khol do. Iska samay abhi aaya hi nahi hai. Aur samay se pehle kuch karna thik nahi hai.
Agar tumne woh chitti pad li toh main iss chitti main batana chahta hu apne dil ki baat. Pata nahi tumse aise chitti bejkar baat karna, uss chitti ka intezaar aur phir tumse milna...pata nahi Kya Kya ho raha tha mere mann mein par aaj jab tumne jaane ki baat chedi toh shayad laga ki mujhe tumse dosti se zyada ek rishta jud chuka hai. Ek aisa rishta jisse main muh modna nahi chahti. Aur iss chitti ek stamp paper samjh kar bej rahi hu
I LOVE YOU SAMEER 
Pata nahi kaise par ho gaya pyaar....iss behenji ko ek hero se...use Suman ko apne Prem se aur Naina ko Sameer se. Tumhe chitti mein mehsoos karna...tumhari khusboo se mera jee barna....tumhari likhawat dekhne ke liye mere ankhne taras jaana yaha tak ki tumse mile bina hi tumse pyaar ho jana....yeh sab tumhe ajeeb lagega par yahi sach hai.

 Tumne pucha ki tum Nanu ko bata sakte hao ki nahi, bata do...shayad woh tumhe rok sake.....shayad tumhe pata toh chalega ki tum unse door jaa rahe ho aur sath hi iss dosti se. Tumne mujhe tumhe pakad kar rone ko kaha, tum hi nahi rahoge toh kise pakadkar roungi? Batao! Sameer main kehna toh chahti hu ki tum mat jao par main yeh bhi cahti hu ki iss riste ka sath tum kudh samjho! tumhe kudh yeh mehsoos karna hoga tabhi yeh rishta ho payega.
Main dil se tumse jud chuki hu...aur chahe kuch bhi ho jaaye yeh rishta tutega nahi...tum paas ho ya door. Tumhari chitti ka intezaar rahega. Aur yaad rakhna Chittiyon Ka silsila abhi katam nahi hua hai!!

Sirf Sirf Aur Sirf Tumhari Naina 

I had confessed to him. I had lifted a burden off my shoulders...I was a free bird now....not bound to any thing. I decided that I would become someone for myself and not for the world. My life took a turn that day...that day was the end of a meek submissive Naina. That day will be etched on my heart because it was the day I was losing him but that was also the day when I was finding me...the inner me.

I know you people wouldn't have wanted the story to head this way but the story needs to proceed. Naina has realized her love but Sameer is not acknowledging it and I thought this would change the equations. So the story is going for a leap and the reasons for Sameer's going away will be revealed slowly. 

Hoping to have expressed the feeling well, I request the readers to leave behind votes and comments. They encourage me. 

Thanks

Roshni