Street lights (vmin)

Pressure

Jimins house after work

Jimins whole body was aching. He washed both sets of grand staircase along with the main dance floor, also changing each piece of furniture and Alaine couldn't do it herself because she was a little bit older.

"I can't believe she made us do all that work." Alaine complained and Jimin just kept walking till he got to the small sitting area. He couldn't walk those stairs at the moment. "You okay Jimin? Your quiet." Jimin shrugged as he sat down taking out his phone.

It was the second time he had to call out on jin and if he kept doing it, he'd be broke and have no home. "Yeah I'm fine. Just sore I guess. I'm gonna go practice before I get tired." She was going to say something but Jimin was already up and walking up the stairs to his apartment.

After changing into his clothes and fixing the right music.

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Jimin had to had been too loud shaking the floor boards because he was met with an angry knock at 5 in the morning. He stopped his music rushing over to the door with sweat dripping down his face panting heavy.

Taehyung stood there with his eyes half closed and lazy clothes on. "Are you okay? Your dancing very aggressively so early." He asked yawning rubbing his eyes.

"Oh my- I'm so sorry Taehyung I was practicing for today. Did I wake you?" Jimin asking huffing. "No not at all. I'm fine." He yawned agin opening his eyes fully rolled see Jimin out of breath tired.

"You should get some sleep. You look tired and sweaty." Jimin laughed slightly, "that's because I am. I haven't slept all day I just need to get this number right then I sleep." He gave a small fake smile.

"Liar. I didn't take you as a liar you aren't gonna sleep I hear you up all night without sleep or regards of any one else in this apartment place." Jimin blushed embarrassed.

"O-oh I'm sorry. I don't mean to keep you up when I practice." "Don't worry you don't wake me up. I usually hear you when I go to sleep and when I wake up so I guess that you don't sleep at all. Especially when you work late."

"Woah your very inclusive only living here for what? 1 week. Yeah I'm always to focused to really pay attention to anything other than myself at the moment I guess you could call me selfish." He laughed awkwardly feeling bad.

"I don't think it's exactly being selfish. Well you can continue your dancing you sound good." Taehyung gave a weak smile and Jimin blushed. "D-did you want something coffee or breakfast it's the least I can do?" Taehyung stood thinking about it before walking in with a smile sitting down at jimins table.

"Black please." Jimin nodded grabbing a towel wiping his face. He washes his face starting the coffee machine setting it to black. "Why are you up so early anyways Taehyung?" Jimin asked taking out bread for toast.

"I...i was actually just taking a smoke break and I happened to hear you so." "Oh okay. Here you go." The machine beeped and Jimin took the mug from under the spout placing it on the table.

"Thank you." Jimin didn't notice but he was in a small shirt and shorts that really hugged his body, he tried not to wear so many clothes when he practiced. "I need to ask but, why do you work so hard?" Jimin snapped his head up blushing.

"O-oh no reason, I just want to be the best I can, why do something if you aren't gonna do your best right?" He hummed in response. "You look like you over work yourself." Jimin shrugged. "I don't think I do, I know my limits." He answered grabbing the toast and setting it in front of Tae.

"If you say so, when are you gonna let me see you dance?" He asked with a smirk and Jimin blushed even more chuckling, "I-I don't know whenever you want I guess. I-I just rented out this small practice place a few blocks from here my living room is too small." He laughed and Tae smiled at him.

"When is the next time you go?" "Erm probably on Saturday since that's my day off. After jins shop." Tae nodded taking a bite of bread, "we'll knock on my door when you come home and I'll walk with you." "R-really? O-okay that's fine." He smiled before getting up.

"Thank you Jimin I appreciate it. And please get some sleep." Jimin nodded following him out locking the door. Once it was closed he smiled to himself cheekily.

He decided to take Taehyungs advice and laid down but something was bothering him. Was my leg straight on my last spin? He asked himself suddenly. He got the urge to get back up and do it all over but he grabbed his pills from his nightstand throwing 2 into his mouth taking water from at the bottom of his bed.

His nerves started relaxing a few moments later and he was able to get just a few hours of sleep before heading out to practice agin.

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🔞Warning talk of body shaming and self harm such as forcefully throwing food up. Etc...🔞

If the other day was hell Jimin thought he must of been in the underworld being tortured by hades himself.

Another day filled with insults and harsh training. The more he came to think no one else in the studio was doing as much as him.

Maybe ms red hated him. She continued to body shame him and judge him about his appearance to the point of when he used the bathroom he made himself throw up hoping that it might help him look slimmer.

"Park ji-min!" (Accent) she called and Jimin ran over to her panting. He bowed, "yes ma'am?" "I want you 10 pounds lighter by the end of the week." Jimin widened his eyes.

"M-me I'm already 133 I-I don't think-" "133?" She shouted and people started looking at their direction. "Elisa come her daling, Eric you too and Britney." The 3 dancers came over in front of her.

"How much do you each weigh?" "112." "120" "122." Jimin suddenly felt so much smaller but big at the same time.

"And you think it's acceptable to be over 120. You will never succeed with such a fat body, ims not pecking on you buts your technique needs help and it's yours weight. I'm sorry to tell you viss but until you do. Don't come back."

Jimin turned away bursting into tears. He ran past Jungkook and hoseok into his dressing room collecting his things. "Hyung!" Jungkook yelled but Jimin ignored him.

"Jimin hyung!" He came running into the room where Jimin was panicking packing his belongings. "Don't Jungkook, j-just leave me be please." He begged throwing his jacket on.

"She's wrong Hyung. Your body isn't fat at all your the slimmest person I know she's just a bitch." "Don't talk about her like that, she could kick you out. I gotta go tell jin I'll be in early tomorrow." He pushed passed Jungkook and ran out the building walking in the cold.

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He collapsed on his apartment floor in tears banging his head against the door cursing himself. After over an hour of blaming himself he got up walking to his toilet. He placed himself on the floor sticking his fingers as far as they could possibly go into his throat until he felt a burning sensation making its way up his throat; he removed his hands throwing up into his toilet.

He did puke much since he hadn't ate any solids in a few days except for the day he was forced to eat that piece of bread.

"Why can't I just be perfect."

Yall this chapter hit deep. If you've had people bullying you or saying hurtful things like Jimin had in this chapter don't let them effect you. You are perfect in your own way.

I hate talking about myself and my past but please you are perfect no matter what anyone has to say about you. Love yourself❤️❤️