𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐲 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬.

11 | blood stained blades

in the end, both agreed on drawing the rashomon and the jinko.

while atsushi was sketching his character, akutagawa was already done. he gazed the art materials that are scattered on top of the glass table, looking for a pen to make his outlines. after checking three times, he realized it wasn't there, "hey, jinko. where's your pen?"

atsushi stopped, thinking where he last saw it. "oh, i forgot to take it out. it's inside the drawer of my desk," he apologetically smiled, feeling bad because akutagawa would have to stand up just to get the pen. the black haired male didn't mind, instead he nodded his head, standing up from his seat and walking away to the other's room.

"my room is on the right side!" akutagawa raised his hand, a signal that he understood.

twisting the doorknob, the pale boy entered the bedroom, making a little creak sound. he looked around, finding atsushi's room quite interesting. it wasn't as plain as his room, even posters of different anime's are hunged up on the wall. akutagawa softly scoffed with a slight smile, walking towards atsushi's desk.

he halted, stuffing his hands inside the pockets of his trousers. he took a minute just staring at atsushi's pictures when he was a child. it was inside small frames atop the desk. akutagawa found it adorable, smiling to himself.

ah, i should just get the pen.

with that in mind, the black haired male averted his gaze away from the picture frames. sliding the small drawer open, rustles of things inside it filled his ears. akutagawa searched for what he was looking for, but that didn't go too well.

he shot his eyes wide open, seeing blood stains inside the drawer and six razor blades. the thought of atsushi always wearing hoodies or jackets around other people came in mind. akutagawa dosen't know what to feel, whether be mad or worried to what atsushi had done to himself.

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on the other hand, the smaller male finished his sketch, only waiting for the black haired boy to return with the pen. two minutes passed, akutagawa was still in his room. atsushi, who got bored by himself had his hood over his head and was playing a game on his phone. lifting his chin up from the screen with a frown, he fixed his gaze at the hall where their rooms are.

what's taking him so long?

out of curiosity and anxiety, atsushi stood up and made his way to his bedroom. he thought about akutagawa falling off of his feet since the carpet inside his room was a little slippery, but the thing is, there wasn't a sound if he did fall. he couldn't think about anything else on what took akutagawa so long just to get a pen, so he just pretended he actually fell on the floor.

slowly entering the room with scrunched eyebrows, atsushi poke his head out from the door to check on what's the current situation. he saw the black haired male dropping the used razor blades in the trash bin. this made the smaller male gasped, catching akutagawa's attention.

fuck.

"akutagawa-"

"show me your wrists," he ordered sternly, walking towards atsushi's way. he sighed, knowing that he has no escape from the black haired male. he remained defenceless, letting akutagawa reveal his wrists covered with cuts. "what were you thinking? are you an idiot?" ryuu clicked his tongue, looking at nakajima who avoided his gaze.

he felt like he has nothing to explain and that the answer is obvious. "stop doing this will you? it's not right to hurt yourself," akutagawa frowned, backing away from atsushi who still remained silent.

"... i'm sorry. i just get upset when people-"

"still. it's not a reason for you to do this," akutagawa sighed, "i know it's hard for you, but please don't do this. i told you before, right? i told you that your eyes are pretty. even if many people in this world judges you, there are some few who still appreciates you." in hearing this, atsushi got shocked. he never expected akutagawa, out of all people, to say such nice things to him. nonetheless, he still appreciated it.

the boy smiled and nodded, "you're right. i won't do it again. i promise."

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pretty boring :( sorry :(