Why?

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by jaymharmie

by jaymharmie

There are days I'm reminded that i lost you before death will get you.
I curl up in bed
Drying my tears, wishing
Hoping ,that this pain would fade away
why?
Why do you say you love and support me
yet you utter those hurtful words that haunt me in my head.
like the words you say in the spark of the moment.
No, they just feel like empty complements
Why?
Can't you take your time and contemplate with the words you say to me.

Why? Did your gestures made me feel unloved and never enough. Why did you compare me with others yet believe everyone is unique
Tell me why?
Why you never heard me? To hear my views like they were worthwhile, to know i can express my dreams and ideas openly without being insecure.

Did you develop internalized dislike for me?
When would you stop looking at me like my mere existence caused you great things in your life with those hard stares.
Maybe i would never know...
~midnighttales