I wasn't enough.

Chapter 10

Thursday 31st July

Lucy's POV

I wake up dreading going to work...

My eyes are sore from crying all night but I get up anyway.

Pullillng my robe over my shoulders, I trudge downstairs.

Today I'm not feeling very energetic so I walk sluggishly to the kitchen and turn the coffee pot on.

I walk over to the fridge and get the milk out for my coffee.

I also grab out some waffles and shove them in the toaster. While waiting for my waffles I pour my coffee and milk in a cup and slurp some up, after a few minutes the waffles pop up giving me a fright and I quickly run to the fridge and pull out the whipped cream and chocolate sauce. I walk back to my waffles and set them down on a small bread plate and smother them with whipped cream and chocolate sauce, they smell delicious! I sit on a stool at the breakfast counter andbeat them slowly, savoring every bite. I have only eaten one and I'm already full, it must of been the slowness at which I ate it why I was so full. I cleaned up, went upstairs, had a quick shower and got dressed. I start at 9:30am now so I had to get up at 7-7:30ish, Ugh.

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I arrive at work 9:30am on the dot, woo! I'm on fire these past weeks.

Rick walks past and greets me

"Good morning Lucy, how was your day off yesterday?" I smile.

"it was wonderful thanks"

Rick smiles at me, nods and then walks off.

Well this day has started off quite good, I think to myself mentally skipping with joy.

Reaching my office, I open a window and sit down at my desk. Just as my computer comes to life, someone lightly knows on my door.

"Come in" I say waiting for whoever it is to walk in.

"Hey Lucy, I just came by to ask if you have lunch with me today? We have a lot to discuss about the movie" Jerry asks patiently waiting for my answer.

"Of course, I also have a few questions about the movie but I'll wait until lunch to ask... oh and what time is it that we'll be having lunch?" I reply while typing away on my computer.

"Let's see, how about 12?"

"Sounds great! See you then" I say smiling.

"Oh and btw you're looking lovely today Lucy" Jerry replies with a small smile.

"Thanks Jerry, you look very nice also" I grin. Everyone is being so lovely today I wonder why?

I must look like crap. They must know I've been crying, somehow they could tell? But how? I put make up on and a smile? no one could know. I'm just being paranoid, no one knows you've been crying Lucy, stop being ridiculous.

It's 10:30am and I feel like a coffee so I walk down to the cafe and order a hazlenut latte one of my all time favorites and buy a museli bar to nibble on. I walk back to my office and see Jerry talking to Sammie the new intern, I notice that she's totally flirtinh with him, immediately I think 'aww cute' but the more I watch them, the more I can't help but feel a little bit of jealousy rise up inside of me. I realize that she's stopped being so flirtatious and Jerry is giving her a sympathetic look, as if to say he's not interested, he rubs her arm and slowly turns away. I'm jumping with glee in my head but then push the thoughts away and remind myself that I am a happly married woman. Just as I come out of that thought  and come back into reality, I look up and see Jerry walking to me. He has a glowing grin planted across his face and I can't take my eyes off him, it's like a ray of sunshine has lit up a room of complete darkness by one smile. I smile back at him and soon we are face to face "Hey Lucy" he says smiling even wider "Hey" I say back trying to keep as calm as possible "Oooh hazelnut latte I smell?" He replies looking at my coffee cup then back at me "Yup it's my f-" "favorite, I know" he said cutting me off "what kind of friend would I be if I didn't know your favorite caffinated drink?" He replied with a smirk "well, you wouldn't be a very good friend at all" I said giggling "exactly" Jerry laughed. I smiled looking up at him and immediately look away feeling a little heat rise in my cheeks "I-I better get going" I mange to stutter, what is wrong with me? I'm acting like a complete idiot "sorry I just have a lot of work to catch up on, you know with the day off and everything" "Yeah, I understand well I'll see you later Luce" Jerry said with a kind smile "Yeah see ya" I reply then I practically sprint back to my office and lock the door behind me and drop to the floor, luckily my cup of caffee is almost finished because it would've splattered out, a few seconds later I get up, straighten up my clothes,unlock the door then walk over to my desk and sit down.