Always? Always.

Chapter 15: Thunderbird

I woke up and I was curious about what Severus and Albus have talked about.
I went to the bathroom and made myself ready for the day, I heard Severus mumbeling so I went to our bed.

Goodmorning Sev.
Goodmorning Sam, why are you up already?
I couldn't sleep anymore, so tell me, what did you and Dumbledore talk about.
He sat up and sighed deeply.
Albus discovered that Elijah is a Death Eater, he wanted to kill you in the hope that I would join them again. His plan has failed and so they will keep coming back until I die or join them ...
I don't have a plan yet, I don't know what to do ... I'll die with either option ...
Severus... I... no, this can't be true! I don't want you to die, there has to be a solution...
I know Sam, I am searching for one.
I'll help you. We'll fight them together.
You know that is impossible Sam.
I rather die than let you join them again.
I cried in his arms, he mustn't die!

I am feeling sad all day, I decided to read a book to get my mind off. I took a book from the library and read the title Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them. I took it with me and started reading.
I came across a chapter, Thunderbird. What kind of beast would that be? I decided to read it and got a great idea. I ran to Severus and when i got to him i was breathless.

I ... I ... I have an idea. wait a minute, I need to catch my breath.
Okay Sam. I wait.
So I read a book from the library, Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them. The cover attracted me, I don't know why I took it. I...
Just tell me Sam.
I read something about a Thunderbird. It is a bird that causes thunder, but it can also cause local rain showers.
Alright and then?
Now if we look for a Thunderbird and give him a Forgetfulness potion, the Death Eaters no longer know that you were one and will stop looking for you!
And where can we find that bird?
In North America! I was so happy, I've found a solution.
We can't go, we have to teach...
Can't someone else go?
I don't know someone Sam...
I will search for someone, believe me, this will work.
I don't know, just enjoy our last moments okay?
Severus, these won't be our last moments together.

I just hope my plan can work, but how can I find someone who is willing to go to America... my heart sank.

Severus Snape

I couldn't sleep, I am so restless. The only thing I can think of is that this might be my last night or that I have to come up with a plan. Tomorrow, I'll tell Sam but how can I tell her, she will be heartbroken...
After lying awake for hours I finally got to sleep.

I heard the sound of the shower, woke me up, muttered something, and Sam came to sit next to me on the bed.

Goodmorning Sev she said.
Goodmorning Sam. Why was she already awake? It's 6 o'clock in the morning.
We talked a while and I told her what Albus and I discussed. She had to cry, just like I expected... I don't want to die, but there is no option... We sat a while on the bed until she went to the library.

I read a book when Sam came in, she is breathless.
She said that she has an idea and the idea is quite good, but impossible. We don't know anyone who wants to go to America and take a Thunderbird with him. Who would do that?
She kept saying that it will work but I don't know, I just want to enjoy our last moments together.

An owl came in with a letter.

Severus,
6 o'clock tonight at my office, we have to talk.
Sincerly,
Albus Dumbledore

I never received such a short letter from Albus. I read on in my book.

The day passed and it was time to leave for Albus's office.
I admired the beautiful corridors along the way, Hogwarts would always be a bit home.

Knock, knock.
Severus, come in.
I went in, his office was quite dark and Albus stroked Fawkes, his Phoenix.
Why did I have to come to Albus?
Phoenixes are beautiful animals, aren't they?
Yes Albus, but why did I have to come?
Sam came by this afternoon, she had a plan.
She has already told me, it won't work Albus. We have to teach again soon and we don't know anyone who would do that for us ...
Help will always be given at Hogwarts for those who ask for it Severus.
Why did Albus always talk in riddles, can that man never even just tell something without making a riddle?
I nodded.
You can go again Severus, good night.
Okay thanks professor.

I left the office and kept thinking about what Dumbledore said, who should I ask? It is my problem, I have to find a solution, I can not burden anyone with my problems.
I went to my classroom and graded some papers, even when I know I will die, I must have these papers graded.

I thought about the life I've had, I've been through so much that no one deserves to be involved. I am finally happy and even now grief lurks. I am thinking about my funeral, I don't have that many friends so few people will come. I hope someone remembers me anyway.
A tear fell on my desk, I had been trying to stay strong for so long, but now it was getting too much.
Life is so unfair I said to the empty classroom. Tears rolled down my cheeks, I can't stop them anymore.
Sam entered with a tray of coffee and biscuits and placed it on a student's desk. She comes to me and comforts me, it just makes me cry even harder.

I am so weak.
No Severus, that's not true, you are the strongest man I know. Everyone has a difficult moment, but you are certainly not weak.
I want to live, get married and maybe have children with you, I'm never going to experience it. I will be seen as the man who is forever lonely.
I will never see you like this, when you die, I see you as a strong, brave man who dies rather than do something that is not right.
Really Sam?
Yes Severus.

We hugged each other for a long time. It relieved to cry, I had been tearing down tears for so long.