Crying

three

"Wake up now Taeyong!" Doyoung shook his friend's arm until he woke up.

"Where am I?" Taeyong mumbled drowsily. He blinked his eyes and few times and realized he was in an SM van. "Oh the fan meet, yes."

Doyoung's eyes filled with concern. "Taeyong you've been acting strange lately. Did you hit your head or something?"

"Actually Doyoung..." he started sarcastically. "I'm fine. Just sleepy, again." He smiles through the pain under his red fuzzy hair. 

Doyoung shrugged and climbed into the front seat onto Jaehyun. "Get off of me!" 

"Then get out of the car faster!" He mocked Jaehyun's whiny tone. "I've got places to go!"

Taeyong rolled his eyes at Doyoung and tapped his shoulder. "Why didn't you get out the back door? Why did you have to annoy Jaehyun?"

"Oh" Doyoung blushed sheepishly. "I forgot about that door. Oops! Sorry Jaehyun." 

Jaehyun just muttered under his breath and pushed Doyoung out of the car and onto the pavement. 

"You little-"

"Doyoung, please stop it." Taeyong carefully put a foot on the ground and stepped over his dark haired friend. "What if a Nctzen took a video?" 

Doyoung's eyes widened in concern. "You know what you are right about that. I don't want that in the internet." He stood up right in front of Taeyong. "Thank you!"

The boys, heavily guarded, made their way to an already crowded park filled with chairs and a large table at one side. Taeyong smiles weakly as he waved at all the cheering Nctzens holding light sticks and banners. 

All 21 members  took their seats at the incredibly long table in front of the screaming Nctzens. Ten made sure to sit right next to Taeyong and grabbed his hand.

"What?" the leader scoffed.

Ten immediately let go of the elder's hand, taken aback. Taeyong never scoffs at me. 

"Hello everyone!" Haechan yelled. "How is everyone?"

All the Nctzens called back what they had been doing lately and how much they loved NCT. 

"That's good!" Haechan grinned. "Well I hope everyone is happy today-" Ten barely listened to what Haechan was saying as he looked at Taeyong from the corner of his eye. His usually quiet friend was speaking less than normal with a frown on his beautiful face. 

Taeyong started at the audience, disappointed in himself. I should at least look happy. He smiled  and immediately dropped it. He knew it had come off as fake but he couldn't help it. He was in a lot of pain from his head throbbing to his heart cracking as he couldn't stand ignoring Ten. Stop being so petty Taeyong and stop pretending your best friend isn't there! He told himself. He glanced at Ten who wore a fake grin, probably aware that he was being ignored.  

Before he knew what was happening, the Nctzens were lined up greeting the members one by one. Taeyong jumped slightly when a girl practically materialized before him. 

"annyeonghaseyo!" The girl smiled and blushed. She played with her skirt and looked at Taeyong with awe filled eyes. "I give you a teddy bear!" She set a cute fluffy pink bear on the table.

"Wow thank you!" Taeyong blushed. He knew it sounded fake but he couldn't let the Nctzen down. She seemed to be around 10 or 11. "I will cherish it forever. Your hair is very pretty." 

The Nctzen blushed more profoundly and pulled her skirt more. "Thank you." She mumbled shyly. She moved to Jaemin in the other side of Taeyong. 

He greeted each and every Nctzen with a smile, a fake one. He cursed himself every time. You're better than this Taeyong! You're not one of those fake people who don't like their fans. You love them with every bone in your body!!!

He knew that some of the older fans could tell he forced the smiles. One girl around his age was very wary with him but extremely talkative with Ten and Jaemin. It hurt Taeyong to see that some of his fans, no his family, were drifting away from him. 

When the meeting was over the manager told them they were going to dinner at a local ramen restaurant. The others especially Jungwoo were excited to get to eat all the yummy ramen. Taeyong on the other hand just wasn't. 

He clambered into the car and turned to face the window. It had started to rain. He counted the raindrops as they fell down the car window. One, two, three, four......

For the millionth time he feel asleep, this time with nightmares plaguing his unconsciousness.

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Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed and I'm sorry for not updating for a while. I'll try to do so more often. Take a Jisoo meme with you for good health and some laughs!