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*LJ'S POV*

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen em in awhile
You've been good
Busier than ever

She sat there, looking at her hands. Wondering what to say next. We basically said everything. Whatever we were holding back, it was all out in the open. Now I can only hope, for her not to walk away. I shouldve been there. I shouldn't have left like I did.

Small talk, workin the weather
Your guard is up
And I know why
Because the last time you saw me
Still burning in the back of your mind
You gave me roses
And I left them there to die

All I can say is, my life is to shyt. It's always been like that since, I left them in Vegas. Well I didn't leave them, they left me. Because of my stupid mistake. Now she's sitting here, telling me what she went through. We both went through the same stage, except I didn't have Kylie with me. She stuck it out and kept her promise. Something I should've done since the beginning.

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing here in front of you
Saying I'm sorry for that night
I go back to December all the time
Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missin you
Wishin I realized what I had
When you were mine
I go back to December
Turn around and make it all right
I go back to December

"LJ I've tried to walk away... I've tried so many times to drop this and walk away... but I couldn't... because a major part of me still loved you.. and if I were to walk, then what? Keep you away from Kylie? Ignore you, every time I see you... I never walked away from anything in my life..." Jade said

These days I haven't been sleepin
Sittin on a plane back
Playin myself leavin
When your birthday passed
I didn't call

"Babe... your doing all you can.. and you're there for anyone who needs you... you try so many times at anything.. and here I am, just giving up.. on everything and everyone... it was always you and Kylie that kept me going... seeing a smile on both of your faces... I never wanted someone so much in my life... and if you walk.. than.. I don't even wanna think or imagine it right now"

Then I think bout summer
All the beautiful times
I watched you laughin from the passenger side
When the cold came
The dark days when Feelin crept into my mind
You gave me all your love
All I gave you was goodbye

We sat there. The radio was playing. As I looked around in her truck, I see a picture. It was by the light and it was pinned with a needle. I looked closely, it was a family picture. It was the day, Kylie was born. That was my second favorite moment of my life. The first one was when we got married. The third was when I proposed. I mean, all the memories I have, all involved Jade. Whether it's good or bad. She's in all of them. I think that's the reason why were having sleepless nights. We are both in each others memories.. the most hours I've slept since she left, was three hours.

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing here in front of you
Saying I'm sorry for that night
I go back to December all the time
Turns out freedom ain't nothing but missin you
Wishin I realized what I had
When you were mine
I go back to December
Turn all round and change my own life
I got back to December all the time