Midnight poetry because I'm a sad bitch

me?

i havent written on this in ages, i haven't even looked at wattpad rip but i'm sad again so here goes nothing... also the grammar is the worst but we're going to ignore that

i want to appreciate myself.
but i feel like i can't.
i feel like i can't post selfies or ill come across narcissistic.
i cant appreciate my body or i'm vein.
i cant like attention from guys or i'm a slut or a whore, or whatever type of bullshit.
i cant not do my work because that would mean i'm lazy and i cant do my work because that means i'm a try hard.
i understand people have it worse and i'm tired of being told that.
i feel bad for them and i hope it eases for them soon.
but i feel bad for me now.
i want to sleep.
i don't want to die i just want to sleep for eternity.
i'm stuck in the endless loop of never feeling good enough.
i'm too dry, too boring. too much, too annoying.
tell me what you feel but please also spare my feelings because i'm overwhelmed but tired of being mocked.
let me breath fresh air.
let me have original thoughts.
i want to be me.