Denial:
I cry myself to sleep,
Trying not to make a peep,
I can't come to terms with the way things are,
This time you took a step too far,
I listen to music to better myself,
But all I am is a toy on a shelf,
I thought things would be cooled,
Turns out I'm the one who got fooled,
Things won't be the same,
Cause you have good aim,
You did this to us,
Just leave that'll be a plus.
Anger:
The anger inside me is boiling,
Feeling like a snake coiling,
Jumping the walls of my heart,
Making me throw up my own art,
Having my brain's thoughts race for a metal,
Not as graceful as a petal,
To see who will be the champion,
Trying to shine as bright as a lampion,
And rule the world that is my head,
All this happens while I lay in bed,
You did this to me,
It's all I can see,
You were supposed to be a dad that taught,
At least that's what I thought.
Bargaining:
Maybe if I don't text or call,
You'll come back after all,
Maybe if I just leave you a letter,
You'll come back a little later,
You can't wind up like your father,
I won't let you go any further,
I thought you were supposed to be there for me,
But you just needed to be 'free',
At least that's what I think.
Depression:
The walls are caving in,
I feel like a sin,
What am I to you?!
What am I supposed to do?!
You gave me hope,
And took it away with a rope,
I thought you loved us,
But I think you just wanna hit me with a bus,
Am I a disappointment?
I'll just make a therapy appointment,
You're my dad but I guess not anymore,
Am I such a chore?
What happened?
Acceptance:
I can't tell you how this feels,
As my mind and heart heals,
I wish I could tell you that I've accepted reality,
But I can't seem to see straight ahead of me,
I continue to look back at you,
And I can't help feel blue,
You were my inspiration to do better,
But I can't anymore due to the matter,
That's all I have to say.
