My Delicate Sunshine |COMPLETED|

The Truth Sometimes Lies

Nag pasundo sakin si Seb sa isang resto bar. I never knew he was capable of going to places like that. Maybe because matagal na kaming hindi mag kasama. Even a year, can do a lot to a person.

Nang makarating ako sa resto bar. The place is way too crowded. Maraming sumasayaw at maraming nag iinuman. I looked around to scan where my bestfriend is, and there he is. He was sitting on a dark corner alone and he had a lot of alcohols on his table.

Nakaramdam ako ng pag aalala nun sa kanya kaya nag madali akong lumapit. Nakatayo lang ako sa gilid.

He seemed to notice my presence kaya tumayo siya at binitiwan ang hawak niyang bote. He hugged me so tight that I swear I felt a pung of pain from it. Kahit na wala akong idea kung ano ang kanyang pinag dadaanan ngayon.

"You are drunk." I said with emphasis. "Itigil mo na iyan Seb, you know it's not good for the health." I said as I put aside the empty bottles of hard liquors.

"Okay, whatever you said your majesty." He spat out, drunk. "You are always the boss. Remember?" he smirked as we both sat down facing each other.

I could still remember the moment they said that I'm the boss of the squad. I felt like i'm respected at pakiramdam ko mas mapapa dali ang pag utos ko dahil susundin nila lahat ng sasabihin ko.

Above all, I felt sad seeing my bestfriend for the first time in a while like this, so vulnerable. Something in me clutched as I realized kung gaano ako ka pabaya sa bestfriend ko.

"I'm sorry Seb." I sincerely said looking straight in his eyes. Alam kong may kasalanan talaga ako. "I always leave you. Palagi kong iniiwan kung anong meron tayo. Palagi akong nawawalan ng oras sayo. I'm really sorry." I held his hands, gusto kong maramdaman niya ang pag sisisi ko.

He pulled his hands back. Nagulat ako but still I waited for his response. Though he is drunk, I know he can still think right. Seb has a high tolerance on alcohols.

"What do you expect me to say Shine?" He was returning my gaze as he continue to speak.

"You were always like that, you always leave me alone. And you always comeback with your words of apologies. And i'm always like this, I always wait. I always forgive.... I always hope." He laughed as he leaned his back on his chair. "Wala eh, eto lang ako. Bestfriend mo."

I don't understand but a tear rolled down from my eyes. Walang lumalabas na salita sa bibig ko. Ang tanging alam ko lang non, ay nasasaktan ako dahil nasasaktan ko ang bestfriend ko.

"but... this isn't about us Shine. I called you not to complain about the kind of friendship we have kaya wag ka ngang umiyak diyan." He handed me the tissue box on the table. Natawa nalang ako ng konti

"Then what is it Seb? Im still here, ready to listen and to cry." I joked, it made him chuckle. It somehow made me feel happy.

"Im just stressed on my job." He looked down as if he was thinking deep.

"What? You love your job hindi ba? You told me before that you dreamed of working on a bank. To count money." I was puzzled up.

"Yes, but, I didn't know na hindi pala ang pagiging accountant ang tinutukoy ko non. Hindi ko rin alam kung ano. Or maybe I was just too pressured kasi may sakit si Papa. Gusto ko siyang maalagaan hands on." he exhaled trying to maintain a brave image.

"I'm planning to quit my job, gusto kong sumunod kay ate sa Singapore, at dalhin doon si papa. May mas magagaling na doctor dun at mas mapapadali ang pag galing niya."

Something in me dont want him to go but he seemed to be so finalized with his plans.

"Alam mong susuportahan kita sa lahat ng mga desisyon mo Seb. but, what about my wedding? You're the best man?" I asked worriedly. Tinitigan niya lang ako for almost a minute.

May laman iyong titig niya. Di ko lang ma wari kung ano iyon.

"You really want me to see you marrying other guy?" He joked as he drank the rest of the beer in the bottle.

"Yes." I stated honestly. "And, Legend isn't just some other guy. He is our friend. Your friend." I added emphasizing the last part.

He then put the empty bottle in the table. "I'll comeback Shine. Of course, I won't miss the most special day for you both." He smiled weakly.

I felt glad after hearing that he would attend the wedding but I felt sad knowing he'll leave back abroad after it. I don't have a choice, kundi suklian ang lahat ng pag iintindi niya sa akin sa mga nagawa ko sa kanya this past few years.

We spent the rest of our night talking and drinking. We had so much fun and I miss this. I miss the way he joked a lot and the way he laugh. We also ate a lot of grilled foods there and he would even tease my weight then and now compared to his years ago. We sang our hearts out on the KTV area.

It was around 2 am when we were both exhausted from our activities.

Right on cue, Legend called and offered to drive us home. Just around 10 minutes and he arrived. He's looking at me sternly as he let my drunk bestfriend stand up.

"Ano bang naisip niyong dalawa. Buti nalang at Sunday bukas at makakapag pahinga kayo." Sabi niya habang agak agak si Seb palabas ng area. Nakasunod lamang ako.

"I was just accompanying him and di namin namalayan ang oras. Sorry." Hindi ko alam kung nadinig niya ba ako dahil di siya umimik. Ng makarating kami sa parking area.

"Its okay, go, find your car. Kakausapin ko lang siya." He ordered.

"oh, alright."

I left to find where I parked the car, after nun, si Lege na ang nagdrive pauwi while Seb and I were on the backseat of the car.

The ride was silent dahil alam kong pagod ang boyfriend ko sa trabaho niya. He got higher position on their field, head engineer yata. Kaya alam kong mas marami at mas stressing ang trabaho niya kesa sa akin. He was way busier than me.

Still, I admire him. Para rin siyang si Seb. andiyan agad siya kung kailangan ko siya. He'd even waste anything on the way para lang mapuntahan ako. Kaya wala talaga akong pag sisisi na minahal ko siya.

Ng makarating kami, ihahatid ko sana ang bestfriend ko sa bahay nila. It looked so silent..and lonely.

"Ihahatid na kita sa taas, baka mapano ka pa niyan" I offered but he just raised his right hand.

"Never enter here."

I froze there by the door. Trying to absorb what my bestfriend had just said.

"Go, and dont ever enter again." He crawled upstairs. "Be happy!" he shouted before I heard a door slammed.

Napa hawak ako sa aking dibdib, parang kumikirot na naman iyon. Akala ko kasi okay na kami.

Nilingon ko si Lege na ngayon ay nakatayo sa may pintuan namin at hinihintay akong makabalik. Nginitian ko siya at naglakad na parang walang nangyari.