True Colors

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"P'Sing?"

"Hmm?"

"Do you know Phana?"

A pin-drop silence suddenly took over the whole living room. The moment seemed to have stilled everything and everyone, luckily, it's just the two of them.

"I--I... Why'd you ask?"

These are the moments where I hope I could've had Apple by my side. She would've been able to think quickly and disperse the awkward air that suddenly float around the room. But alas, she had this grand idea of giving Sunny and I some space and privacy so we could move "further" in our relationship and decided to go and have an impromptu sleepover to Yo's room -- to which he eagerly accepted all the while waggling his eyebrows and throwing kissy faces our way -- which, technically, is just 2 rooms from here but still seemed so far away given the situation at hand.

What are the odds that Sunny would just let me bolt to Yo's room and pretend none of this took place?

"It just seemed like you know each other." Sunny shrugged. "Remember when you went to my Faculty and Phana appeared to hand me the book I left in the cafeteria? You both stared down at each other so I guessed that you two might've had some history."

I mentally snorted at that. Oh, we have history alright.

Should I lie? Should I tell the truth? How much did that brat told him and how much did he omitted?

He must've noticed the internal conflict I'm currently under due to his sudden inquiry because he took the bowl I was holding to dump to the sink and placed it back to the coffee table, gently coaxing me to sit on the couch.

I obeyed without protest and my breath hitched when he suddenly enveloped me in a warm hug. Couldn't possibly resist the urge if I tried, I buried my head on the crook of his neck and inhaled his scent deeply, immediately subsiding the momentary panic I had.

I don't want to lie to him. I don't know whatever it is that we have between us -- hell, I don't even know if whatever this is would last, though, I'd certainly bet my fortune to make sure it will -- but I'm not entirely sure if I'm ready to tell him about it yet.

Am I scared? Hell yeah, I am. He's close to Phana. Even Apple confirmed to me that they're best friends. What if he side with him? What if he won't understand where I'm coming from? What if he thinks I'm petty?

What if he gets disappointed of me?

I felt my arms tightened around him on their own accord just as I felt him soothingly rub the expanse of my back in response.

"You don't have to tell me if you're not ready."

Fuck. "I don't want to come in between you and Phana."

"That bad, huh?"

"Probably. Depends on how you look at it, really."

"It's okay, P'Sing, I get it. If you have to lie to protect me from whatever secret it is that you and Phana seemed to be hell-bent on keeping then I'd rather wait patiently 'til you're ready to tell me willingly."

I didn't even know I was holding my breath the entire time 'til I finally felt relieved enough to let it go.

"I'm sorry. I really don't want to keep things from you this early in our relationship."

I felt him smile against my neck and for a moment I wondered what I did to deserve him and his seemingly never-ending understanding.

"P'Sing, I should be the one apologizing. You said it yourself, it's too early for our relationship and here I am being all nosy and stuff."

I broke the hug to look at him in the eye, gently rubbing his right cheek with my thumb as I held his face.

"You're not being nosy. I already know you'd be curious about that thing between Phana and I. You just caught me off guard with how soon you asked."

He smiled and opened his mouth in an attempt to apologize once more but I decided it's high time to cut him off now. So I did the best way I know how to shut him up.

With a kiss.