The boy who sneaks into my bedroom window-ETHMA

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Emma

Grayson was out for the count two episodes of SpongeBob in, and Ethan kept shifting around uncomfortably. I yawned and had to move my head as Ethan shifted once again. What was with him tonight. 

"Ethan" I said lifting my head of his shoulder to look at him and he snapped his head down at me. His cheeks were flushed red, and he was sweating quite a lot. His hair was all messed up and floppy with sweat and he was breathing really fast. 

"You good" I questioned him and he quickly shook his head yes. I quirked a brow up at him as he just studied my face. "Are you sure, you look ill or something" I said and his cheeks grew warmer. He shook his head once again and then glanced back to the TV. I let out a sigh and shuffled further away from him, thinking he might be uncomfortable being so close with me next to Grayson. 

It was much later now, 10:47PM precisely, and I was tired, but Ethan seemed very awake so I tried to stay up. It didn't last long. 

"Ethan, Can we go to bed" I whispered closer to his ear and his breathe hitched. "I'm tired as shit" I continued and he seemed to relax a little bit. "yeah, yeah, I'll tell Grayson I'm going and meet you there" He said quickly and I nodded slowly walking out the room. 

"Gray I'm going" I heard Ethan say and he got a mumble in response. I walked into my room and just brushed my teeth and washed my face since I was already in some comfy cloths for bed. 

I walked back out and Ethan was already in my bed. He was scrolling through his phone, and was now stripped down to his boxers like always, but now it made me a little uncomfortable. I don't know what it was but it felt like he wasn't a platonic relationship anymore, and it made me worry that I was going to be in bed with him practically naked.

But as soon as I got in to bed, Ethan just put his phone back down on charge, rolled over and that was that. I quickly got up to lock the door and then turned of my lamp, which was the only source of light. 

When I was back under the warmth of my covers I expected Ethan's arms to snake around me and pull me closer to him, but he didn't. I sat still, almost waiting but he never moved. 

"Ethan" I whispered, he can't have fallen asleep that fast. I turned around slightly as he did to hear him better as he whispered a yeah back. 

"Urm, why aren't you cuddling me?" I questioned him trying not to sound weird but failing nether the less. I heard him sigh and then looked at him as he shrugged his shoulders. 

"Are you sure your okay" I asked him again and he groaned. "Yes Emma" He said quietly and I turned my head sideways to look at him. 

"That's BS tell me what's up" I said and he shook his head. "Nothing I swear, it's just" He trailed off and I looked at him expecting him to finish his sentence but he didn't, instead he just motioned me away with his hand , trying to go to sleep again. 

I turned back around and tried to back in to him but I felt him shift again, making my back hit his. I huffed loudly and turned around, spooning him instead. I blew in his ear and he squirmed away. "Stop" He groaned and I sighed. 

"Why won't you cuddle me" I said a tad bit offended and he snapped his eyes towards mine turning back around to face me. Then he grabbed my waist and turned me over, pulling our bodies together to spoon, but I instantly gasped. 

"Oh-my" I said and Ethan Hummed "Now do you know why I don't want to cuddle angel" He whispered in my ear causing a shiver down my spine, I quickly pushed away from him shocked by his massive boner. I felt it as it was stiff against my bum, and if I wasn't nervous before, I sure as hell was now. 

"What made you" I trailed off gesturing to his crotch area and he looked at me like I was stupid. "You, you idiot" He stated and I gasped again. I don't think I've ever made anyone feel this way before. 

"Urm" I said feeling very awkward and embarrassed causing Ethan to laugh at me. "It's okay Emma, it'll go away" He said and I nodded.

He scooted closer to me and kissed my cheek. "Try get some sleep yeah?" He said and I looked at him. Back muscles tensed and glowing tan skin. I couldn't help myself.

I grabbed his face and brought his lips to mine. His lips were soft and plump, but slightly dry, and they  quickly pulled away from mine. "Emma" He said hesitantly and I moved closer to him, putting my legs ether side of his waist. "Just-shut up" I told him before leaning down and kissing him again, but this time he kissed back. 

It was gentle and slower at first, but we quicker picked up the pace and soon our lips were reaching out to one another in such need, lust you might say. One of his hands slowly wrapped around the back of my thigh, holding it in place around him, and his other hand held my jaw in place. 

I felt his tongue slowly glide across my bottom lip, and I opened my mouth a bit. I honestly had no clue how to kiss, and have only kissed one person. Once. 

He groaned slightly as I slipped my tongue into his mouth, threading my fingers through his hair as something to hold onto. My breathe was becoming heavier, but nether of us cared. It's like he was my oxygen, and I needed every last bit to survive. 

After a few moments I felt his hand move from my thigh to my bum, and that's when my heart started to send out warning signals. This was too much, too fast. 

I quickly pulled away pushing his hand away in the process and he looked confused for a moment, before looking at my expression and saying. 

"sorry, too much" He rushed out, panting himself. I looked down and sure enough his cock was still rock hard, poking through the covers, even more prominent than last time. It's too much. 

"Hey, hey it's okay" Ethan said moving towards me but I flinched causing him to halt his movements. I didn't mean to but I was just very aware of what just happened, and it scared me.

"baby" He whispered, hurt laced in his voice and I felt my cheeks burn in embarrassment. 

Ethan had probably done this so many times, and I wouldn't even go further than a kiss. 

"Sorry, I, just, it was too much" I said and he nodded, moving closer to me again. 

"You know I'd never hurt you" he whisper as he spooned me from behind, resting his head on my shoulder and kissing my cheek again. 

"Yeah, your right, God I'm sorry" I said feeling more and more embarrassed by the second. "What are you sorry for" He asked and I could tell he was genuinely confused. 

"I'm sorry I'm too much of a wimp to do things with you" I told him and I instantly felt his head shake on my shoulder. 

"Baby, You have absolutely nothing to be sorry for. You have a beautiful body, and I would love those things one day, but that's not what I want you for. I Just want to..."He cut himself off before continuing. "I   want to take things slow. I don't expect anything from you angel, I never did." He said and I nodded. 

"doesn't mean I don't like kissing the hell out of you though"