Hallucinations

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The song- Dizzy by MISSIO. Hope you guys like it. Back with the story.

My body still numb from last night. We were a thing now, me and Alex. Sounds amazing doesn't it. I had one of the best sleep by a mile at my time at Amare. Maybe cause this time it was with Alex. In his room. You know what that means.

I AM NOT A VIRGIN ANYMORE. Sky's grown up. My destiny had led me to this. Led me to being stripped by this bitch whom i adored so fuckin much. What else could a girl like me ask for?

Lea was shell shocked. I couldn't deny her amusement cause it would have been unexpected by someone like me. You know getting naked beneath the sheets aint my fortae.

Teenage life for me was all about cigarettes, cheap vodka, procrastination and lot of immature bullshit. But i was no ordinary teenager. I wore this cute yellow colour top and a fedora which i had borrowed from Lea. That bitch had a matching fedora for all of her outfits.

Lea was chilling near the mini garden which was just next to our class. She had been off lately and i had no clue about it. At times i felt like i should be asking her the reason for her vulnerability but procrastinated. It was her life and she needed space.

I was curious though. What could make a girl like Lea, bold, strong, attractive and full of life so dull? Could it be Zenith? I haven't seen them together now for quite some time. But i reckon i should let it be. Might confront her later.

I patted gently on her shoulder. It was rather stiff. When she turned is when i realized she had been crying. It was shocking. Lea crying isn't a day to day sight and she looked fucking drradful. I held down my tears while she overflew with hers. It was hard, REAL HARD and i didnt even have any idea what to do.

I placed myself next to her. "Hey there." Lea burst into tears and hugged me. It was a tight one. I couldn't breathe for a while but i could sense the torment she was suffering from. I put my hands around her showcasing my consolidations and telling her everything will be alright and she need not worry.

She gave me a faint smile appreciating my presence. I had been dreading to see that little smirk on her face. Felt like ages.
Lea was the closest to me.

She wasn't the same. A bleak corpse trapped in an angels body. Her endeavours to be content had diminished. And that hurt like hell. I couldn't have just sit around doing nothing about this. I had to know the reason behind such depradation and questioning Lea wouldn't have been morally humane.

I rushed into the boys dorm which was fairly a few steps away. The room was tardy. No sign of life could have been sensed. I spotted Zen in the corner. I pondered over the fact wether i should make a move and ask him directly or just hint at the given situation obliquely.

Chosing the first option I stepped foot inside his room. I was rather passive and was in no mood for arguements. I just wanted to hear the truth. I gave out a whisper. I reckon Zenith wasn't able to catch my voice as he failed to percieve my presence. This time i was rather louder and was able to apprehend his senses.

I could see a rather eerie smile. I knew for a fact he wasn't pleased seeing me here. I straight up went to the point. "Why the fuck would you leave LEA. Bitch don't you see she is shredded. Weren't you guys in love? Or was she just a woman you wanted in your life cause you couldn't keep your pants on, on her sight?

I guess i was a little too straightforward. But i need my fucking answers. Zen was fervourless. As if he had no clue about what had happened between him and Lea.

"Me and Lea weren't just a thing Sky. I was betrayed. I loved her but she couldn't. Why would see go kissing Travis? Wasn't i enough for her? Maybe i wasn't, but didn't i have any rights on her. She could have at least gave me a hint. Maybe fuckin tell me what happened. And all i did was asked her why? And i am at fault?" Zenith bursted all his emotions.

It felt true. But i didn't want to believe it for some reason. "I still love her Sky. I really fuckin do. But if she isn't happy with me i guess i better keep my dick in my pants. I would completely understand if you don't want to believe this. Trust me i want to be proved wrong too. But what i had witnessed couldn't be faked. I request you to ask Travis rather than askin me. Cause i can't confront that bastard."

He slammed the door on my face. Shit was rather messed up. I couldn't concur who was at fault? Was it Zen? For not being a good boyfriend? Was it Lea? For cheating? Or was it Travis? I had to figure out.

I hadn't seen Alex for quite some time. I had been busy trying to crack the case between Lea and Zen that i had completely forgotten about Al. I really wanted a hug and some coffee. I went by to the smoke hub. Got some ciggs. I was so tardy and messed up that i blew through the entire packet maybe in an hour or so. My lungs had adjusted to them. The vodka always seemed to balance out the rough taste of Malboros.

It had been quite sometime had i read a book. With all the trauma and fellony going on around me, i ceased to miss out on the very thing that had defined my childhood. I was done reading the book Ms. Penny had advised me. It might have been a little over the top for a person but if you reread it once you'll find a deeper sentiment behind the book.

Even the cover suggested it. While reading it for the second time i realised this mini easter egg. The bright red cover was just a cover up to the actual title. If you noticed it carefully you could actually lift the cover. The title that was hidden was "Setiments than soul". The book was literally captivating the true meaning in order for us to explore it on our own.

I had mad respect for the author. I asked Ms. Penny for some more his works. But in vain they went. Apparently Augustus was the proud author of this very book and had no other works too showcase his brilliance.

Happiness is just a cover up to what lies beneath it. And torment, darkness is what creeps beneath. It's all just a cover up. We try to look for happiness in others so that we get a chance to be happy. But we captivate the fact that our happiness lies in being truthful to our sentiments. This is one thing that i had learned.

And maybe Lea was captivating her. But to be sure about that i had to talk to Travis...

Alex showed up. I realized he read the note that i had left for him. He leaned and kissed my neck. With his hands around my waist. I felt safe. I turned and put my arms around him as we kissed.

Alex had no clue about Zen and Lea and i wanted to keep it that way. So after the whole evening i returned to my dorm. By now i was accustomed to not seeing Lea at night but today i felt paranoid. Could Lea have actually cheated on Zen?

I hadn't spotted Travis for a long time too. He was no were to be seen. But i had been over stressing over this issue for way too long now and just needed a temporary escape from this distress.

After our hobby classes with Mr. Jack i made my way to the main hall. As i was walking past the corridor i spotted Travis. He was wearing his iconic ripped jeans and a blue shirt. He always had the first to buttons unbuttoned. I never found it attractive.

As he was about to leave. I patted on his left shoulder. "Did you kiss Lea?" Travis wasn't shocked. To be honest he always had this cold expression on his face and didn't show what he felt. He just stood there and told me wether Lea had told me this.

He didn't bother for my reply and just stated that "I never kissed Lea. She did. She came and she kissed. I just went with it." And then walked away.

Why would Lea do this? I mean she loved him right? Does she? Will i ever know
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I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter. Next one will be shortly updated.. :) Peace.