If You Love Her ⤍ Kim Jonghyun

14

I recommend you listening to:

🎵 'I'm Young' by Nam Taehyun 🎵

as you read this chapter.

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"You won't regret it Jonghyun. This is the right thing to do. I'm really proud of you." Kibum said. He was sitting on my bed as I fixed my hair looking at my reflection in the mirror.

I was going to meet up with Amelia. I was going to end it with her. I've been struggling for the past week if I should make her stay or let her go and I finally decided that it was time for me to let her go.

She's getting married in 5 days and I knew it was wrong to stay with her even after she gets married and I couldn't do that to Minho.

I knew it was going to be hard for me to call it quits but this time I had to ignore my heart and listen to my mind for once.

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It was night and the stars were dazzling and beautiful. I wanted to end our forbidden relationship but I wanted to end it on a good page instead of a break up filled with hate and malice.

So I decided to see the stars with Amelia for the last time. I kept waiting for her and she arrived only a few minutes after my arrival at the spot.

She walked closer to me and hugged me. I patted her shoulders and pushed her away softly.

She looked up at me with a confused look. "What's wrong?" She asked with a concerned look on her face.

"Sit down first then we'll talk." I said. She listened to me and sat down on the grass and I followed her actions.

"Jonghyun what's wrong? You're worrying me." She said as she held both of my hands. She was so close to me that our thighs were touching. I tried to pull myself together but my heart kept racing when she was near me.

I scooted away from her a bit to focus and pulled my hands out of her gentle grip. She looked confused.

"Amelia, I need to be honest with you. I really love you and I can't deny that but what we are doing is wrong and I think we should-" she cut me off by placing her palm on my mouth and said "Don't continue. I won't listen."

I removed her hand gently away from my mouth and placed it back on her lap. "Let me finish." I told her.

I forgot what I was going to say because my thoughts were mixed up. I was nervous and she cut me off so I didn't know where I was. I decided to just say whatever was on my mind instead of what I memorized and practiced.

"In the end I'll always be second place to you." I blurted out. I can't believe I said that out loud but it was true and it hurt me a lot.

"That's not true! I-" I cut her off by saying "let me finish please." She sighed heavily then nodded.

"I asked you to give me a small space in your heart you did but it was small and it kept getting smaller and smaller that it started to make me suffocate and scare me. I kept trying to ignore it because I still loved you but now I know that you didn't love me."

"I was jealous of you two but I can't hate Minho for making you happy. I think now is the time for us to say goodbye. We're heading to the end of our relationship that should've ended when I found out you were already with my best friend."

"Jonghyun please don't do this." She said as tears started to form in her eyes. I don't think she really loved me she just felt guilty for dragging me along for a long time.

"Let's not make this a messy break up and let's stay on good terms please. Amelia you deserve the best and you deserve to be happy but so do I." I told her and stood up.

She didn't stop me so I walked away leaving her behind. A huge part of me was happy because I was strong enough to end it but a small part of me wished that she stopped me from leaving.