It all comes out
I looked into his eyes regretting every single second that passed and I didn’t say anything. Niall was speechless too. He was looking to everywhere but me.
“Niall-“
“H-h-how are you Sofia? H-h-h-how is that possible. No, it’s not possible. I went to her funeral. You are not Sofia. I saw her body.”
“ Niall I’m in a secret agency. Faking deaths is daily breakfast for them.” I tried to get closer to him but he took a step back. Great, when I wanted him to stay away from me he didn’t but know he’s all into that.
“How long have you known this for?” His voice is full of hurt and sadness. It kills me, it truly does. I don’t answer fearing it will make things even worse. But something clicks in Niall’s brain because a second later he had already the answer. “ That’s why you left… That’s why all of the sudden you disappeared. You got your memory back when you saw your grave stone. That’s why left wasn’t it Alex? I mean Sofia. What should I call you? Why did you leave? Why would you do that?”
“Because Niall!” I was shouting right now. “Because of that exact look you gave me not even five seconds ago. I hate being the cause of you hurt and sadness. It kills me! It literally kills me inside, and even though I try to ignore how much it affects me believe me I would rather get cornered by a whole gang than hurting you.” Tears were rushing down my face, Niall didn’t move a muscle to come closer to me.
“Why do you have to protect me so much? Damn it I’m not made of crystal. And I’m the one who’s suppose to be protecting you! Not the other way around Alex!”
“I’m sorry ok? I just didn’t want to put you in more stress. You’ve had enough with me and my family.”
“You’re family… Are they still alive too?”
“Niall-“ He gave me a look that immediately shut me out. He wanted the truth and I knew if I didn’t give it to him it would the last thing he would forgive me. “My dad is alive… My mum was killed the day they told you we were all in a car accident. My dad was the one who uhm… who tried to kill you. He thought you might know something you shouldn’t. But you don’t remember anything. But he likes you!” I immediately rush saying. “It’s nothing personal trust me. It’s just that it concerned my safety and I’m apparently a daddy’s girl. I don’t know… I’m still trying to take all in you know?” I look down at my feet not knowing what to say anymore.
“I feel betrayed Alex…” My hopes were crashed. There was nothing I could do to have him back. “How can I trust you now knowing that you might be lying to ‘protect’ me? How will I know that when you say you’re going into a mission to save a damn cat you’re not truly going into a suicidal mission? You think I will like to find out you are dead by a letter.”
“Niall… that won’t happen I promise you. No more lies.”
“I need some time. Some time to get all this filtered in my head. I’ll come back when I’m ready.” He made his way to the door without saying anything else. However just when he was about to get out he turned around and looked directly into my eyes. “I still love you please don’t think otherwise.” I nod giving him a weak smile.
This was definitely not the end…
*
I took a short nap before the bell ringing interrupted me. When I opened the door Renee and Rob were looking at me super upset.
“You’ve been MIA for way too long. Get out of your cave immediately and come with us for a picnic.” Rob said. “Oh and in case you are wondering, this isn’t an invitation. This is an order.”
“ Yeah he’s right. We are your best friends Alex. We miss you…” Renee chipped in.
“As much as I would love that it’s seven in the evening. We are not going to have a picnic at night.”
“Who said we couldn’t? C’mon Alex since when did you become this ninety year old widow that stays all day thinking about your feet?”
“I’m not that obsessed with my feet Rob… Fine let’s go but please nothing too crazy and please somewhere public it’s getting dangerous to be out at this time of the night.”
“Yes mum…”
Niall’s POV
I felt so so lost. I kept driving around Bradford even though I barely knew where I was. I was thinking about everything that happened the last two hours.
What was I suppose to do now? I know it’s not all entirely her fault but still, couldn’t she tell me once she found out? Ale- Sofia needs to stop trying to protect me from everything God damn it. How does she think I feel? What if the next mission she has she knows there’s a risk of she dying but won’t tell me because she wants to ‘protect me’? I’m not a kid. I can handle some God damn truth. I don’t know if I should be angry, sad, disappointed. To be honest right now I feel nothing at all. I feel numb.
My phone starts vibrating on the seat next to mine taking me out of my own thoughts. I look at the screen and see Monica’s name.
“Hey Moni.”
“Well hello faggot. Thanks for ignoring me for the past two days. Where have you been? Every time I go around your house you’re not there. Is everything ok?”
“Uhm…” Shit what was I going to say now? “I met someone!” Seriously Niall? You could do so much better than that. Monica remained silent taking it in.
“You met someone…?” I’m pretty sure Moni wouldn’t buy it. She knew how horrible I felt. “ That’s so freaking great news!!! Dude! Why do I only know this now? Oh my God I have to meet this girl. Or is it a boy? Because if it is you know I’m totally fine wi-“
“What? Moni you think I’m gay? Not that that is a bad thing but when did I give you the impression I was? It’s a girl ok? And no you are not meeting her. Not just yet I need some time. We are still getting to truly know each other.”
Technically I wasn’t lying. Sofia told me the truth - and nothing but the truth - for the first time today. So yes I don’t need to feel that guilty for ‘lying’ to Monica.
“Oh ok makes sense as long as that person’s name isn’t Alexia Montrose I’m fine with anything.”
Technically it is Sofia.
*
Bear with me I just started writing. It will get bigger in the future...
omg so since I didn't have my computer I started re-reading Secrets and this book. OMG I NEED SO MUCH EDIT!!! and hahahah the Taylor hate ( but Sidney you're madly in love with Tay Tay)
And the *carrots* references hahahaha and omg it has so many grammar errors. Shame on myself.
Today was the last day with Minion :'( (if you follow me on Instagram you know who she is...) I cried so much I'm gonna miss that little devil. She's leaving to Portugal and breaking my heart :'(
Also, Singapore is the babe!!!! Had so much fun today at the photoshoot haha Singaporeans are amazing af.
Tomorrow I'm going to the doctors omg can someone help me.
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