emma's pov.
I get a call on my phone, causing me to wake up out of my sleep. I quickly answer hearing my moms voice.
"Hey, Emma. I'm about 30 minutes away, so I wanted to make sure you're up."
"Hey, mom. Yea, I am. Can't wait to see you," I say as I rub my temple. We exchange goodbyes and hang up the phone.
Fuck.
I forgot my mother's coming to visit me and my apartment is still a mess. I get out of bed and run to the bathroom, washing my face. I usually have my alarms set for 8 in the morning for my soul cycle class, but I slept in today.
I guess I kinda needed it, right?
I brush my hair out and put it into a bun, then exiting the bathroom. I make my bed pick up some shoes and clothes off the floor, putting them into my closet. I then trot down the stairs getting ready to clean my downstairs area. It wasn't too messy. Nothing I couldn't handle.
I pick up a few shoes clean up the kitchen area, and within 15 minutes I finish.
I make myself a coffee and sit on my phone as I wait for it to brew.
I really wish I'd had went to soul cycle today. I feel empty without going first thing in the morning. I wish I could go now but that'd be rude leaving my mom here alone. The doorbell rings and I quickly jog over.
"Hey, darling!" She gives me a hug as I do the same.
"How are you?" I ask. I grab her suitcase and carry it inside, following behind her.
"Good, what about you?" She takes a seat at my couch, sighing.
"Same. How was the drive? You seem pretty tired."
"I am. Woke up too early. I drove nonstop, not a single stop." She tells.
"What the fuck, why not?" I walk over to the kitchen, pouring my coffee into my mason jar, then grabbing the almond milk out of the fridge.
"Just wanted to get here quick!" She says loud enough so I can hear her from the other room.
I stir my coffee walking back to the living room. "You can take a nap up in my room if you want. You've been awake since pretty early."
"Yea, I think I will. But I just got here I don't wanna fall asleep already." She laughs lightly.
I shake my head while sipping on my coffee.
"No, I'll be fine. Besides, I haven't went to soul cycle yet, so I might do that while you're asleep." I explain.
"Perfect," She gets up from the couch walking over to me and giving me a kiss on the cheek "Thanks, hon." She goes towards the stairs, walking up.
"No problem, love you."
"Love you too."
And with that, she's gone. I already had my workout clothes, so I decided I should just leave now. I grab my jacket that was placed at my chair, my coffee, phone, and keys. I head out and make sure to lock the door, going to my car.
I know I shouldn't think about what happened yesterday, but it doesn't leave my mind. His words, his actions, expressions, they all replay throughout my head. I can never understand what goes through his mind and that's what bothers me. Maybe that's why.
Maybe that's why we aren't together anymore. We can't understand each other. He doesn't understand me just as much as I don't understand him.
Although I wish we did.
I realized I hadn't told James yet, so I decide to call him. The line rings for a while until I hear his voice.
"Hey, what's up. We haven't talked in forever!" He says
"I know, Im sorry" I sigh.
"Whats wrong?" His voice is laced with worry.
"Nothing, it's just- I-" without even realizing it, I start breaking down. I don't even know why Im crying and I certainly didn't expect it either.
"Emma, girl, what's wrong? Are you ok?"
"Yea, yea, I'm fine. Sorry, I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. It's just, a lot of shit happened." I explain, wiping some tears. I finally reach soul cycle, but I stay parked. I tell James everything and by the time I'm done it's about time for my class.
"I'm so sorry, babes. Things just keep getting tough, I know. But keep your head up through all of this. You've got this. I got to go now, but I love you. Bye love."
And with that, he hangs up.
He's right. Just gotta keep my head up. I turn my car off and head into soul cycle.
I don't need him. I'm a strong independent woman. Who needs boys and drama?
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I walk inside my apartment and see my mom drinking some tea at my table.
"Hey honey! How was soul cycle?" She asks putting her phone down.
"It was good. The usual. How's the tea?" I reply plopping onto the couch.
"It's great. So, now that you're back, why don't you fill me in?" She walks over and sits on the couch across me.
"What do you mean? Fill you in with what?" I act dumb.
"Emma, you know that I know that something sup with you and Ethan. You still haven't caught me up. Last time I remember you guys like each other?" She takes another sip of her coffee.
"Liked, past tense," I corrected her "He cheated on me, with Kristina, the girl he did a music video with. And now, unfortunately she's pregnant with his kid. And before all of this he thought I cheated on him with Derek. Remember him? Neighborhood Derek, would bike to our house sometimes."
"I remember Derek. But wait, she's pregnant with his baby?!" She almost yells.
"Yea, she is. She took me with her to the ultrasound and everything. It's there." I answer.
"She took you? Are you guys friends?" She seems completely confused and honestly, I do not blame her.
"Oh mother, how about I start from the beginning."
This is gonna be a long night.
