Words are not enough

19.

Ariana

„Courtney is everything okay?" I asked as she puked another time. I walked over to her and held her hair back. Slowly she stood up and walked over to the sink where she washes her mouth.
„What happened?" I asked leading her upstairs into her room.
„The alcohol" she smiled and lay down on her bed.
„I just felt so sick and then I had to puke and yeah." she mumbled.
„Ohh my poor baby. I'm gonna sleep with you, when you not feel good just wake me up okay?" I spoke as I laid down next to her. She pulled me into a hug and quickly after that I heard her quiet snoring.

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„Ariana?"
„Ariana wake up." I opened my eyes seeing Courtney in the front of my face.
„Aren't you feel good? Is everything okay?" I said sitting up.
„Calm down I'm good" she replied and I breathed out.
„The boys bought breakfast. There's some Starbucks coffee too." she spoke smirking at me. I stood up, stretching myself and  yawning. As I walked downstairs Aiden pulled me into a good morning kiss.
„Good morning baby" he mumbled into the kiss.
„Good morning babe."
We sat down and startet to eat.
„Where have Courtney and you been tonight?" Ron asked curiously.
„Courtney felt s—."
„We wanted to talk about some things you know we didn't see each other for like I don't know when" she cut me off as I looked at her. She gave me the gaze and I kept on eating.
„Baby I need to drive to the studio. James called me, I need to record some new music." Aiden said.
„I'm gonna stay here at home."
He smiled at me, the way nobody do it. It was so cute and full of love.

When we finished our breakfast Aiden went to the studio and Ron drove home.
„Why haven't you tell him that you puke?" I asked her while putting the dishes into the sink and washing them.
„I just don't want him to worry about me."
I smiled but I felt that something wasn't okay.

When we finished the dishes we sat into the living room like in the old time watching Catfish.
It was 5 pm by now and I felt so tired. I was laying on Courtney's lap while she went trough my hair massaging my head.
„I missed this time" I mumbled looking up to her.
„Me too, it's so boring without you in the house." I smiled as I sat up looking at her seriously.
„But I fell like something's not okay. I know you for really 26 years Courtney you're like my second me. Tell me when you don't feel good."
„I swear to god I'm okay. Why do you think I shouldn't be?" she questioned.
„I just thought—forget it."
Then I took my phone into my hand texting Aiden.

iMessage

Aiden

Reading these messages inspired me a lot. I kept on singing as James decided that I should take a break. I was sitting on the couch scrolling trough twitter liking edits and photos which fans posted. There was one edit where I was making a marriage proposal to Ariana. James came throwing me a energy drink over.
„You good?" he asked and I nodded.
„Kind of, may I ask you something?"
„Ask me kid" he replied taking a sip of his drink.
„What's the best way to proposal a woman?" I questioned feeling like the biggest idiot.
He laughed and I felt like the biggest dumb ass.
„You're like me when I wanted to proposal your—my wife." I looked up to him trying to understand what he was talking about.
„I searched for help to but there was no one who could help me. That's why I did this on my own. And that showed me, real love. She loved my idea how I proposals her."
„And how?" I questioned hoping for an answer.
„I'm not gonna tell you kid. You need to know it to yourself. I really love Ariana she's like my daughter but you know her better. Anyway my marriage broke years ago. But my love never died. I still love her and I will always do."
I smiled at him as we got up and I went back to record. My voice was clearer then ever and I knew what to do.
„Change the melody I have to try something."