Words are not enough

32.

Ariana

Slowly I opened my eyes feeling kisses all over my face.
„Good morning my love"
„Good morning baby" I said wrapping my hands around his neck kissing his soft lips.
„I made breakfast come on" he mumbled standing up and walking into the kitchen. I didn't even know where the kitchen was, the only room I knew was the bedroom where I actually tested the bed. I smirked while I was thinking about last night.
„Baby come on" he yelled and I followed his voice. As I walked in I saw the table with food, immediately I sat down taking some blueberry's into my mouth.
After the breakfast, we went sightseeing and we went to the beach. Afterwards I made me ready and we ate at an Italian restaurant.

-2 weeks later-

Our honeymoon ended and we were back at America. Right now Courtney was at my place with Keyla. We were sitting in the living room watching Dynasty.
„Ugh where's Aiden?" Courtney asked interrupting my attention to the film.
„At his mother's he needs to repair some shit or something"
Suddenly I felt weird. I felt sick as I run to the bathroom puking into the toilet. I knew that I shouldn't eat this fucking pizza.

„Ariana is everything okay?" Courtney asked rubbing my back. Slowly I got up nodding at her.
„I'm okay now. I just started to feel so weird. It's because of the pizza."
We went back to the living room laying down again.
After we watched the movie Courtney starred at me.

„Why are you starring like that sis?" I asked smiling at her.
„Ariana" she responded with a smile.
„What?"
„I don't wanna be hasty, but is it possible that you're pregnant?" she asked I felt goosebumps all over my skin. I'm not on pill anymore because we want a baby but maybe not now. I just wanted my body to rest. I mean my hormones were kind of playing crazy.
„I-I don't know I think I'm not we used a condom the last time after I stopped taking it." I stuttered feeling so fucking weird now.
„I were you I would do a test Ariana"  Thank you Courtney, really? She's a genius. I nodded and stood up immediately.
„Where are you going?" she questioned.
„To the drugstore"

I took my jacket walking out to my car. I started to cry because I didn't know if Aiden was ready for a baby. I took my phone as I started the car.

„Hey baby what's up?" I heard his voice speaking. I felt like a stone, I couldn't even say a word.
„Baby is everything okay?" he responded and I immediately started to breath again.
„Can you come home? I—need to talk to you" I said monotoned.
„Is everything okay?"
„Yeah just—just I need to talk to you it's pretty important" I stuttered.
„Okay I'ma see you in 15 minutes. I love you princess." I had to smile because of the nickname.
„I love you too my baby"

I hung up, driving to the drugstore where I bought a pregnancy test. When I arrived home again I saw a note which were laying on the table.

„I went home because it's between you too. Don't forget I'm gonna support you as long as you live. Tell me immediately if I am gonna become an auntie. Ps I took a pizza out of you fridge...started to get hungry. love you sis. Court knee"

I smiled before I heard the door closing. My heart started to beat and I tried to swallow the node in my throat.
„Baby? I'm home" he yelled taking of his shoes. I tried to look back but I couldn't. I felt like a stone. Again. Cold. Immovable. Frozen. As I felt his hands on my shoulder it pulled me out of everything.
„Hey is everything fine? You sounded worried on the phone." I turned around still with the tests in my hand. As I faced him I saw a bright smile.
„What happened baby?" I pulled him into a hug trying to hold back my tears. I was afraid. Maybe he wasn't ready and he's gonna leave me.
„You missed me so much?" he mumbled.
As we pulled off, he looked down to my hands. For a few seconds he starred at it before facing me with a even wider smile on his face.
„Y-you mean this for real?" he asked and I nodded.
„I puked today and I—felt really weird. Courtney suggested that I should do a test"
He pecked my lips before taking my hand and leading me into the bathroom.
„I'm gonna wait in front of the door" he replied. I nodded and locked the door.

While I was waiting for the result I was nervous. I really felt it. My hands felt sweaty. My head was burning. I was worried. I walked back and forth. I washed my hands making them cold to placing them on my forehead. After 15 minutes I was ready. I took the test still with my eyes closed. My hands were shaking but I tried to stay calm. Slowly I opened my eyes seeing the result. Tears dropped down the floor as I saw „pregnant 2+".
Before I walked out I tried to calm down but it didn't work.
„Baby are you okay?" he said noticing my sobs. Slowly I opened the door facing him. He pulled me closer to him kissing my cheek.
„And?" he asked curiously. With my shaky hand I gave him the rest. I noticed how he took a deep breath in looking down the test.
„You're—we're" he stuttered as I noticed his tears.
„I am" I sobbed placing my face into his neck.
„I'm so happy baby" He kissed me and smiled the whole time.

-

„I thought you're gonna leaving me" I mumbled into his neck.
„Why should I? I was dreaming about the day baby don't ever think about that again."
He rolled up my top placing soft kisses on my stomach.
„You're gonna be a perfect mum. You're gonna give it so much love." I felt my glossy eyes but hold back the tears. I texted my mother, Frankie and Courtney telling them the news. My mother was freaking out Courtney cried and Frankie danced. I never felt something like that before. Knowing I was carrying a baby inside of me made me feel so different. Beside Aiden I had another sense of life. My child. Our child.

-

„Calm down baby" he said as we walked to the car.
„I'm not! I'm gonna birth a child! Ohhhh! FASTER!" I screamed as I sat into the car moaning because of the pain. As we arrived the hospital the doctors took me to the birth room. I was sitting on his fucking chair or whatever it is.
„Okay Mrs Grande and now you have to push" the doctor said.

Aiden

Ariana was squeezing my hand as she pushed and cried.
„Baby come on you got this" I tried to motivate but she gave me a mad gaze.
„O—Ohhh this is soooo fucking exhausting" she screamed. After a few times pushing, I saw him. We didn't want to know the gender so it was a surprise.
They gave him to Ariana placing him onto her breast.
„He's so beautiful" she cried as we both looked at him.
„What name do you want?" I asked her placing a soft kiss on her forehead.
„Elijah"

-

-3 years later-

Ariana

„Elijah?" I yelled seeing him with Aiden in the garden.
„Guys we gotta go" I explained but they both just laughed.
„Mommy's being annoying again huh?" I gave him a mad gaze before pecking his lips. We walked to the car where I but the seatbelt on my little boy afterwards sitting next to Aiden. We drove to the barbecue at my mother's. Everyone was there. Courtney, Keyla, Maree, Aidens siblings, our friends.

Keyla and Elijah were playing in the sand as I pulled Aiden to me. We went to a quit place as I kissed him.
„I'm so happy we're here. Together." I mumbled kissing him.
„Are you drunk?" he asked and I reposed with a smirk.
„You're my drug" I mumbled kissing him again.
„I love you and no one can describe how much"
„Not even words" he responded pecking my lips.

„Guys are you coming? The food is gonna get cold" Courtney yelled and we both laughed as we walked out. That was our life. We kept going living it like that. We got two kids. Elijah and Zara. I was so fucking happy with this man by my side. I'll never could describe how much I love him and how thankful I am. Because words aren't enough.

[A/N : that's the end. I really appreciate that you kept reading this story even though some chapters were boring and so on. I hope you enjoyed it. My
new story ~>Discarded. THANKS FOR READING]